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So I was exposed today for the first time to the world of "video blogging". I mean in the sense that I lurked, of course. And well I was basically mesmerized by how fucking lame everyone is. I mean, most people aren't meant to be filmed. And... when they are it's not cute. No matter what. Plus, I mean... the whole concept is pretty sad to me.
Anyway I have a toothache, again. And I'm terrified and ashamed to go to the dentist since I've never had a cavity in my life. Or anything bad, even my wisdom teeth were coming in perfect. But that was like 2 years ago, maybe more. Definitely more. I'm so fucken screwed, I mean it could be worse, but at 20 years old how do I manage to fuck myself up now??
I'm working tomorrow so I need to be falling asleep now.
I've got so many things I have to do, so many things that I'm nervous about. Well at least I'm not depressed all the time, that was ages ago. But it comes around in waves. Sometimes I feel like things are just crumbling. But I have Dragan, and he's just like me, only so much stronger. So for that, I can't quite say I'm depressed. Cos he's like an angel. And he'll kill me for writing that, which is a sexy thought.
One can say I miss him a lot. But there's a lot to miss.
Fuck.
Anyway I have a toothache, again. And I'm terrified and ashamed to go to the dentist since I've never had a cavity in my life. Or anything bad, even my wisdom teeth were coming in perfect. But that was like 2 years ago, maybe more. Definitely more. I'm so fucken screwed, I mean it could be worse, but at 20 years old how do I manage to fuck myself up now??
I'm working tomorrow so I need to be falling asleep now.
I've got so many things I have to do, so many things that I'm nervous about. Well at least I'm not depressed all the time, that was ages ago. But it comes around in waves. Sometimes I feel like things are just crumbling. But I have Dragan, and he's just like me, only so much stronger. So for that, I can't quite say I'm depressed. Cos he's like an angel. And he'll kill me for writing that, which is a sexy thought.
One can say I miss him a lot. But there's a lot to miss.
Fuck.