x Ive Done It So Wrong x
I feel so n u m b right now.. Its hard to explain. See, i do this all the fuckin time. I break up wit Dillon, hes all RAWR FINE BE THAT WAY! Then goes out and has fun. And IM the one that always sits on her ass at home and has NO FUN whut so ever. I dont get it. Its supposed to be the other way around god damnit. But nooo. I actually have r e s p e c t. God i hate myself. But its ight. Cause tomorrow im going to Bobby's house fo the night. So fuck him. He can do whutever the fuck he wants. Yeh thats right. FUCK YOU DILLON! FUCK WHO EVER YOU WANNA FUCK! Ahhh.. That felt so fuckin good to say. Anyways.. Now im jus chillin. And its a FUCKING Friday. How does this work? No. Sheila's not usually like this. Sheila likes to go out EVERY Friday and have fun. But ever since i met Dillon, that hasnt been happenin. Sheila likes to DRINK. Can she do that right now? Nope. Sheila likes to BLAZE. Can she do that right now? FUCK NO! How in the fuck does this work out? Tell me this.. Wow. Fuck you buddy. Not fuck me. Fuck you. You may have been cryin, but i was cryin too. But guess whut? Im fuckin over you. Any fuckin way... I needa take a shower, and get ready for tomorrow and all that bullshit. I hope he dont blow me off. He made me promise not to blow him off, and i aint. So i hope it dont happen to me. Or i cant fuckin do anything this weekend. And truth be told.. I wanna get FUCKED up this weekend.. Not jus sit at fuckin home while everyones out havin fun, drinkin, smokin, or gettin fucked. No.. That was Sheila's every day routine. Now whuts it gunna be? IT BETTER BE THE SAME FUCKIN ROUTINE!!! * gets angry * Ahh... Right. So. Im gunna dress all nicey nice tomorrow, paint my nails, do my make up, and all that stupid fuckin shit. But right now, im gunna b o u n c e. Cause i gutta take a shower, plus i aint feelin to good bout this.
' Baby i jus dont get it.. Do you like bein hurt? '
MCL to my JuggalOz and LeTTez. <3
x ToxiK x