ugh...
wow... so does everyone in the whole freakin world know who im talking about? i mean, i know of some that i told... but damn... apparently no one can keep anything to themselves anymore.
i wish it was all over. everything that i think and feel. and im sure this person just doesnt realize how much it kills. everything- every little thing now bugs me more than ever... i cant seem to direct my attention to anywhere else right now...
this is making me loose confidence in myself... perhaps im not that good of a person... is there something wrong with me? am i really that bad?
i dont wanna think down upon myself... im trying to accept whats going on, and possibly move on...but its just not workin out for me...
ive gotta question for anyone who would like to answer...
i seriously need to know what to do... should i shut them outta my life so i can forget about them and move on? or should i keep high hopes that something will change? or is there actually a way i can make something change? do i need to change?
am i retarded for acting like this? you guys can say anything to me... i need to hear both sides... not just when people tell me things to make me feel better, you can say how i need to stop being a douche or something... i dont care, i need anything i can get... right now i just need a friend... and i have plenty of you guys who are just awesome! but i think some of you know what i mean...
i wish it was all over. everything that i think and feel. and im sure this person just doesnt realize how much it kills. everything- every little thing now bugs me more than ever... i cant seem to direct my attention to anywhere else right now...
this is making me loose confidence in myself... perhaps im not that good of a person... is there something wrong with me? am i really that bad?
i dont wanna think down upon myself... im trying to accept whats going on, and possibly move on...but its just not workin out for me...
ive gotta question for anyone who would like to answer...
i seriously need to know what to do... should i shut them outta my life so i can forget about them and move on? or should i keep high hopes that something will change? or is there actually a way i can make something change? do i need to change?
am i retarded for acting like this? you guys can say anything to me... i need to hear both sides... not just when people tell me things to make me feel better, you can say how i need to stop being a douche or something... i dont care, i need anything i can get... right now i just need a friend... and i have plenty of you guys who are just awesome! but i think some of you know what i mean...