differences........
does it matter that we dont have hardly anything in common?? we are so totally different. she brought that up today and she got sad. i asked her if it was okay and she said yeah its fine. didnt sound too convincing to me. the one thing we do have in common is that we both care about each other alot have so much fun together. some say that is enough but i duno. im scared that one day she is going to wake up and wonder why she is with me. i think that is just me being scared to lose her but i duno.
tonight we are going on a date. our second one since we have been together. while she was in italy it was our 3rd anniversary so we are celebrating that tonight. she got this cute skirt from italy that she is wearing. i cant wait to see her in it;-)
adrienne and i are talking again. i wonder how that will turn out. so far it is good. we are not fighting atleast. i kinda miss talking to her about stuff but now its weird between us. i want to tell her stuff and vent to her like i used to but i cant let go all the way. just dont feel i can trust her. i think that will pass b/c we used to be pretty close. just think thats my insecurities. damn i didnt think i was that insecure about shit. this morning i get this really mean e-mail from adam. he was being a jerk about me sending him pics of me at pride. guess hes not over me yet and hates to see me and heather together. i kinda cant blame him but on the other hand its been 3 years. get over it and move on for god sakes. over all it has been a very bad day for me. also i am getting old and i dont like it.. i think i feel that way because all my friends are so much younger than me. i have always hung around older people and now im the older one. that has been kinda hitting me lately. i just need to go to ky and rest. forget about shit for a few days. i leave in a week. i will miss heather. she will be spending alot of time with jodi while im gone. YAY:-( i told her i didnt want them drinking together and she was like WHY??? i got kinda mad b/c she knows why. she is just so oblivious to her games. hopefully she wakes up before it goes too far. anyway i guess i cant worry about that. just have to wait and see what happens.
work suck really bad today. it has been so slow. i have been playing on the internet all week. goddam i need a new job!