Nov 06, 2019 18:14
This last week has been a blur. Tessa and her husband flew in from Italy and their daughter flew in from London. On Monday I went to apartment with Jeff and just fell apart. It's been so strange, I feel a mix of relief, loss, anger and numbness. It's like depression without the pain and misery of depression.
Last Tuesday we had a family dinner, then on Sunday we had a gathering at my cousin's for a small gathering of friends and family. Naturally nobody's heard anything from my sister Rachel. Last night we had a smaller family dinner before Lina flew back to London.
I've been spending a lot of time in the apartment, bagging clothes and going through drawers. We've all been going, tagging stuff we want. Some of it took a little negotiating, but by and large it's been civil. My brother has flashes of anger but I don't respond.
As for Mom's ashes, guess where they are? That's right, on my bookcase.
real life,
grief,
tragedy,
family,
personal