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They say every "first" your baby has will melt your heart...
I cannot tell you how true that is.
That first time he locked eyes with me and smiled this big grin- I've never felt my heart flutter like that. God bless him he is so precious.
I've learned that talking with Jay is the best medication. He calms all worries. I am my mother's daughter so I'll never strip myself from worry, but I don't have to let it consume my thoughts the way I have been. Having someone beside does help and I need to stop waiting for it to get too much before I finally talk to him because he always makes me feel so much better.
Work starts next week and I know it's going to be hard not being with Gavin but I need to go back. I have a feeling though that I will cut back on the hours they've given me because being with him is more important to me then making an extra buck. A couple nights a week - it'll be weird to adjust to but at least he will be with my parents which I feel the most comfortable leaving him with.
Being a mom is always a growing experience, but so far- it's truley the most satisfying
I cannot tell you how true that is.
That first time he locked eyes with me and smiled this big grin- I've never felt my heart flutter like that. God bless him he is so precious.
I've learned that talking with Jay is the best medication. He calms all worries. I am my mother's daughter so I'll never strip myself from worry, but I don't have to let it consume my thoughts the way I have been. Having someone beside does help and I need to stop waiting for it to get too much before I finally talk to him because he always makes me feel so much better.
Work starts next week and I know it's going to be hard not being with Gavin but I need to go back. I have a feeling though that I will cut back on the hours they've given me because being with him is more important to me then making an extra buck. A couple nights a week - it'll be weird to adjust to but at least he will be with my parents which I feel the most comfortable leaving him with.
Being a mom is always a growing experience, but so far- it's truley the most satisfying