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Pop. Me
Status. WWWTF
today I almost bought dope. I got to the phone and it hit me. "oh....yeah....FUCK THAT!"
no it was not the idea of messing up my clean streak. Honestly, I just did not want to go through that much effort for something I did not need that bad. Call him, wait, call again, wait, call again, drive 30 minutes, wait, give him 20-40 dollars, waste 5 minutes shooting up, drive home another 30 minutes and have completely wasted my time, my gas, and my money, just to feel fucked up. So, I said fuck that and took extra strength ibuprofen and my anxiety medicine and played FF5.
I am not sure if I should be proud of myself for not giving in to buying drugs or ashamed of myself for being to damn lazy to buy drugs. For Rusty's sake we will not be going with the latter.
I ate carrot cake today
I feel like the hill I am rolling this boulder up is starting to level off.
xxx
jules
Pop. Me
Status. WWWTF
today I almost bought dope. I got to the phone and it hit me. "oh....yeah....FUCK THAT!"
no it was not the idea of messing up my clean streak. Honestly, I just did not want to go through that much effort for something I did not need that bad. Call him, wait, call again, wait, call again, drive 30 minutes, wait, give him 20-40 dollars, waste 5 minutes shooting up, drive home another 30 minutes and have completely wasted my time, my gas, and my money, just to feel fucked up. So, I said fuck that and took extra strength ibuprofen and my anxiety medicine and played FF5.
I am not sure if I should be proud of myself for not giving in to buying drugs or ashamed of myself for being to damn lazy to buy drugs. For Rusty's sake we will not be going with the latter.
I ate carrot cake today
I feel like the hill I am rolling this boulder up is starting to level off.
xxx
jules