goodbye forever i'm lost
even through all this i always thought that she'd come back to me, that she'd stand by me again someday. well that thought has been completely eliminated and now i am forever abandoned and alone. i thought the betrayal was temporary that it was what worked in the moment but now i know it won't be. this is permanent. this is eternal. this is what it's like to have the one person you thought could never leave turn their back and walk away. no not walk, run. run away. from me, from everything. running doesn't make me go away or the problems. it doesn't solve anything. i thought you would have learned that but i guess not. maybe you will when you see that it's over. when you turn around to find me and i'm gone. forever lost to you. forever out of reach and earshot. your words mean nothing to me. actions speak so much louder and your's say goodbye i won't help you i don't love you. i know you love me but not it the way that i need, that you should. so this is it. this is the end. this is goodbye. i wish we could have gone on forever like we should have but apparently you had other ideas. other dreams that didn't involve me. i thought i was the other part of you, what made you whole. i guess not. i'm nothing like you and i won't be. i could never do the things you did. never thought you could. i thought i meant something to you, that i was important. i thought wrong. you've showed me that. i can't go back to the way things were, ever. i won't look back and wonder. i'm moving on without you. same as you are doing without me. i love you because of who you are and could have, should have been. but i can't love you like this. i can't live like this and i won't so this is it. this is the end. this is where we part forever, goodbye. i'll miss the memories we could have had but never will. you don't deserve my love after what you've done but it's your's. i can't change that. i don't know if i want to. i don't know anymore. my world has been turned upside down and inside out and pulled apart and the peices will never go back together like they were. it's not possible. there isn't a place for you in it anymore. i'm done. i'm done with you. i don't know if you'll be able to put your peices back without me but you'll have to. that's the choice you've made. life will never be the same for us, will never be what it could have. this is where we move on without eachother, alone. goodbye. wait fuck the good part. there isn't going to be anything good about it. things shouldn't be like this. the only good part is maybe we can finally get on with our lives and quit living in the past, in the future that we dream of but will never come. no use hoping for tomorrow. there won't be one. it's over. bye.