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i haven't posted in over a month. i don't wanna separate from this journal. but lots has happened. um lets see. i've decided that I'm going to be attending the University of New Haven next year, and I couldn't be anymore excited. I'm entering as a communications major, hopefully with a concentration in Journalism. I was thinking about the other day how much time really has flown by. I remember my first day of kindergarten when I wore my favorite leopard dress and sat next to Ashley Campbell. It scares me that I'm looking for prom and graduation dresses and that the next graduation and prom I attend will be my own. I can't believe how much of my life has changed and the person I've become. The people I've met and befriended, the ones I've lost. The places I've been and the ones I will go. It really lets me know how amazing life is. This journey I'm going on, and the journey I have ahead of me. I cannot wait to continue and start a new chapter. I cannot wait to continue the life I'm living and have it change. Of course when I leave here, I'll miss it. Everyone and everything I'm used to will mostly be gone. But I'll become comfortable with new things, and at this point in my life, I know I'll be okay.
As for prom, I'm not going with my date anymore. Last tuesday he told me he couldn't go anymore. I know regardless I'll have a good time, but I know I'll feel more alone and almost pathetic then ever, as unfortunate as that sounds. I don't want anyones sympathy over this, I don't need anyones sympathy. If I let all of this get to me, it will break me down and ruin the happiness I have regardless of what has happened. I'm over prom. I'm going and that's it. I'll deal with it and have as much fun as I can without a date. Sure, pictures are going to suck. So are the slow dances. But whatever, I'll get over it. All I have to do is get through this next month, and it'll be over and I'll be done. That's all I need. Is for this to be over.
Things with my family are good. Jess' graduation for Northeastern was this past thursday and friday. I can't believe she's a college graduate already. I don't think she knows how truly proud of her I am. I don't think she will ever know. But I am and I hope she'll one day realize it. My parents are good. My whole family is doing well. We're starting to build up to where we used to be financially, and I know things will never be the same, but it's starting to come close and I'm very happy about that.
I think there are only few people that I need in my life. Alex, my family, Brittany and Alexa. These girls really know me and I really love the friendships I've developed with them. I always will be close with them and I'm happy to say that.
That's about it. Good luck with finals to everyone whose taking them. I'll hopefully post again soon.
As for prom, I'm not going with my date anymore. Last tuesday he told me he couldn't go anymore. I know regardless I'll have a good time, but I know I'll feel more alone and almost pathetic then ever, as unfortunate as that sounds. I don't want anyones sympathy over this, I don't need anyones sympathy. If I let all of this get to me, it will break me down and ruin the happiness I have regardless of what has happened. I'm over prom. I'm going and that's it. I'll deal with it and have as much fun as I can without a date. Sure, pictures are going to suck. So are the slow dances. But whatever, I'll get over it. All I have to do is get through this next month, and it'll be over and I'll be done. That's all I need. Is for this to be over.
Things with my family are good. Jess' graduation for Northeastern was this past thursday and friday. I can't believe she's a college graduate already. I don't think she knows how truly proud of her I am. I don't think she will ever know. But I am and I hope she'll one day realize it. My parents are good. My whole family is doing well. We're starting to build up to where we used to be financially, and I know things will never be the same, but it's starting to come close and I'm very happy about that.
I think there are only few people that I need in my life. Alex, my family, Brittany and Alexa. These girls really know me and I really love the friendships I've developed with them. I always will be close with them and I'm happy to say that.
That's about it. Good luck with finals to everyone whose taking them. I'll hopefully post again soon.