kurt maes takes it on the chin
what up y'all. i've really been listening to a lot of goldfinger lately, its been rad. i go through stages with bands that i listen to non-stop, and goldfinger's time is now. so its 4-20. thats pretty cool i guess. so i took two camera's in to get developed, one was not fully developed but i brought it in cuz i thought was from formal this weekend, turns out it wasnt. these pictures are so wild and incriminating...I LOVE IT. i wish i knew how to put pix in here, but oh well. ask me if u want to see them. so formal, didnt go so well to say the least. so it really bothers me when i go to dances and girls tell me to come dance but then end up just dancing with their friends, and then when i go sit down or go elsewhere they track me down and tell me to come dance and the same shit keeps happening, it always seems to happen like that, thats why its best to have a date that doesnt know anyone. so i start acting like a baby about it, telling people how bored i am and i even tried leaving without telling her, i guess that is bad. then words got twisted around saying that 'i never want to talk to her again' when what i said was 'i figured we'd never talk again since the night ended so awkwardly since she prolly hates me'. so i guess i screwed up a friendship or two...but lately that seems like what im good at. if anyone has an answer to this question please tell me....why is it that so many people fade in and out of my life at such a great turnover rate. i mean it has to be me, but i dont understand what it is. i've been in one of these depression slumps lately, where i question what i am to the world, it seems like so many people that i thought were my friends dont really care. i mean if i dont call people, would they ever call me? or if i stoped IMing people would they really care? yeah, anyways, im out, sorry this wasnt a fun entry, just had to say some shit. thude