On a Day Like This
Why is it that the subsequent days are always so wonderful after a huge mess? That mood thing is so right and so wrong too. I feel far too many things to really put a single label on it. On a day that truly is as beautiful as this, I can't describe what I feel. You ever have that feeling? Kind of sucks doesn't it? But yet at the same time it sort of makes you walk with an extra bounce in your step because you don't know what's around the corner. Well, friends are wonderful aren't they? Late Sunday night I was thinking to myself while I was once again alone in a huge triple (best time to think and actually talk out loud really) and I got the biggest inspiration to convince my friend Cy to drive me and a few other chosen ones to see Bettina, my best friend who happens to be in the hospital at this moment. Yeah, she's been in and out of hospitals since mid-Sophmore year in high school. Just a little background, her kidneys failed her at the age of 15 due to some hereditary disease and since then she has received a kidney transplant from her father. More recently, she has gone back into the hospital because the disease seems to be attacking the new kidney. And so at the present moment she is awaiting surgery on Wednesday and she didn't really explain what it was for. For some reason, this has just finallly started getting to me and so now I've become truly aware and scared of her condition. Well anyways, the good part of the story is Cy, Stephanie, Mitra, and I all drove up to Richmond yesterday to surprise her. She looks so good for what she's going through. I mean she wasn't fatigued or anything, so things seem to be going really well. A relief truly.
As far as the rest of my life is right now, things are splendid. Things aren't as bad as they seem. I'm trying to figure out what I feel about things right now. I'm feeling so really weird feelings, mainly just things that I haven't felt yet or, at least, I didn't know I felt them. I still kind of hurt about a few things I guess, but the hurt goes away really quickly. I think I'm mainly numb towards most men right now, which is a shame because I would like to date. I don't know, maybe I'm not. But I feel very different about things right now and it's kind of a weird thing for me. There are things that I definitely look forward to, there's a lot of them and some of them do concern things that I prolly shouldn't be thinking about, but it's cool because they're on the back burner so-to-speak. They would be interesting if time ever brought them about. Hope that's ok for people, but I ain't makin' no apologies if it ain't. Shoo.
So what else is happening? Well I love Madison so much. Seriously, you can bring me out of any remotely bad mood that I may be in. You're awesome. She reminded me that even badasses need to go to the student health center every once and a while. I've been helping all kinds of people out with all kinds of problems they have, so I really feel like things are good right now. The first part of this entry might not really seem like I'm that way, but I am. Gotta keep up the optimism. It's so easy you know? Truly is very easy if you just let it happen.
-Cub
As far as the rest of my life is right now, things are splendid. Things aren't as bad as they seem. I'm trying to figure out what I feel about things right now. I'm feeling so really weird feelings, mainly just things that I haven't felt yet or, at least, I didn't know I felt them. I still kind of hurt about a few things I guess, but the hurt goes away really quickly. I think I'm mainly numb towards most men right now, which is a shame because I would like to date. I don't know, maybe I'm not. But I feel very different about things right now and it's kind of a weird thing for me. There are things that I definitely look forward to, there's a lot of them and some of them do concern things that I prolly shouldn't be thinking about, but it's cool because they're on the back burner so-to-speak. They would be interesting if time ever brought them about. Hope that's ok for people, but I ain't makin' no apologies if it ain't. Shoo.
So what else is happening? Well I love Madison so much. Seriously, you can bring me out of any remotely bad mood that I may be in. You're awesome. She reminded me that even badasses need to go to the student health center every once and a while. I've been helping all kinds of people out with all kinds of problems they have, so I really feel like things are good right now. The first part of this entry might not really seem like I'm that way, but I am. Gotta keep up the optimism. It's so easy you know? Truly is very easy if you just let it happen.
-Cub