L-O-V-E
I LOVE HIM!
Yes, I know...sooo soon...but I dunno, I've always said that love is one of those things that you can't really control and this proves it! I'm a very controlling person, and believe me, if I could control it, I would! I would keep my love to myself for a long time to protect myself from getting hurt, but, as Noelle has made me see... life is a series of chances that you've got to take to receive optimal happiness. But back to the loving thing.... Kyle called me tonite and talked a bit, he was so sweet and totally adorable. We talked the first time for about 10 min, and the whole time I was just thinking in my head "I love this guy, he's totally perfect" then we got off of the phone and he sent me a text message that said "I so wanted to say i love you when I talked to you last"... but he didnt have to, I felt it, and it felt great! Then he called me back a little while later and we talked for about 10 more min then we got off the phone. He called right back and said "I just wanted to tell you I love you!" It felt so great, and I definitely feel it too... The only thing that sucked was that I am staying the night at my sisters and she was awake so I couldn't say "I love you too" but it's okay, I'm pretty sure he knew...
I know what love is now, and it IS uncontrollable! I know there are going to be critics and pessimists that are going to think it's dumb and that we cant possibly love each other yet...I know, I used to be one of those people, I always thought that love took years but now I see it just has to take two people that are perfect for each other. Okay...well I'm pretty tired now, so I think I am going to get some sleep... I hope I get to go up to see Kyle tomorrow...I miss him so much! *sigh* Until next time...
Yours Truly,
MC