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damn that part of town (this area) sucks. I never thought Hutto was cool, ever. but damn I'm glad I got whatever was wrong with me out of my system, whatever it was that inspired me to live and work there for a little over a year of my life. *shudder*
I have a new theme for life. just another one of those phrases, mantra's, or belief systems that I pick up and try to adapt but never do. living life on my own terms, being in charge of my own realm of stuff. this also means being responsible. I've been too submissive and way too permissive about who and what I let into my life, what I let govern my life. no body governs my life but me. and if something pisses me off on a regular basis or doesn't jive or line up with what I expect or would like to see... it's out. I've put up with way too much bs in my life. what's worse... I've tried to change myself to adapt to what other people and external circumstances have wanted/demanded of me. I just want to be myself, you know what I'm saying? love myself for once. and get to the point where I can do that without questioning it. so yeah. that's all I have to say about that right now.
damn I'd like to go hang out. it's only 11, the night is still kinda young. but I am definitely kinda tired.
hmm. ponder.
have a good sat. night world and everyone.
I have a new theme for life. just another one of those phrases, mantra's, or belief systems that I pick up and try to adapt but never do. living life on my own terms, being in charge of my own realm of stuff. this also means being responsible. I've been too submissive and way too permissive about who and what I let into my life, what I let govern my life. no body governs my life but me. and if something pisses me off on a regular basis or doesn't jive or line up with what I expect or would like to see... it's out. I've put up with way too much bs in my life. what's worse... I've tried to change myself to adapt to what other people and external circumstances have wanted/demanded of me. I just want to be myself, you know what I'm saying? love myself for once. and get to the point where I can do that without questioning it. so yeah. that's all I have to say about that right now.
damn I'd like to go hang out. it's only 11, the night is still kinda young. but I am definitely kinda tired.
hmm. ponder.
have a good sat. night world and everyone.