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there's a will inside people, in their eyes. sometimes its burned out, sometimes its turned off, but never all the way. but sometimes it is.
lately, i've just had the urge to fight, fight for what i want. to not give a shit, i mean it comes and goes, but thats how it is for me, and i accept that. but when i get in the mood, i get in the mood.
ive joined like 6-7 clubs, wings, now im going out of school to volunteer like everywhere.
i want to go to washington dc for that 1200$ trip thing.
im trying to do whatever and anything i can to look good for college.
sat practice course is almost over, thank god.
its difficult because being the oldest my family expects me to slave around here. but i can't do it anymore, i've sacrificed too much for them. it's there turn. i sacrificed pretty much my whole social life in middle school to watch my youngest brother. im sorry that this is high school and i want to enjoy it? seriously.... i mean my other brothers won't have to deal with this shit. i'm gonna fight for what i want. and im gonna get it, and ill show you how.
its all about fighting.
fight for what you want.
the problem is i dont know how to get what i want,
but i always know what i want, except a little lately, but bare with me, i have a general idea.
i dont want to have everything figured out, but it seems like im gonna have too.
thank you steph lees for getting me to this spiral of volunterism.
lately, i've just had the urge to fight, fight for what i want. to not give a shit, i mean it comes and goes, but thats how it is for me, and i accept that. but when i get in the mood, i get in the mood.
ive joined like 6-7 clubs, wings, now im going out of school to volunteer like everywhere.
i want to go to washington dc for that 1200$ trip thing.
im trying to do whatever and anything i can to look good for college.
sat practice course is almost over, thank god.
its difficult because being the oldest my family expects me to slave around here. but i can't do it anymore, i've sacrificed too much for them. it's there turn. i sacrificed pretty much my whole social life in middle school to watch my youngest brother. im sorry that this is high school and i want to enjoy it? seriously.... i mean my other brothers won't have to deal with this shit. i'm gonna fight for what i want. and im gonna get it, and ill show you how.
its all about fighting.
fight for what you want.
the problem is i dont know how to get what i want,
but i always know what i want, except a little lately, but bare with me, i have a general idea.
i dont want to have everything figured out, but it seems like im gonna have too.
thank you steph lees for getting me to this spiral of volunterism.