Just had my guts ripped out
Topic: A very honest ranting about real life
PG: All above board
I am generally a positive person ;but today I was really blown away.
I am fairly smart and really hard working, hence I usually gain success in all endeavours that I take on. I believe in the old adage what you put in is what you get out, hence the twisted addiction to pushing myself all the time.
I have been studying since I left school trying to pursue the corporate ladder , but I am at this stage, who the hell cares anyway. Will this fact be mentioned the day I die? Will this be the fact that I was a good scholar be remembered my children?
I have been studying non stop for the last odd ten years and have progressed onto my Bachelors Commercial Degree in Financial Management. I am in the final stages of my second year subjects but just got my results to say that I failed all three my subjects for the last semester.
When the screen popped up with my results, I heard myself say "No", "Oh No" and the tears came, streaming down my cheeks.
All the sacrifice, all the time away from my beloved husband and friends for what? For what the world wants you to be?
"You can only apply for this job if you have completed your BCom." And of course I merrily plod along.
I am 28 and have not had any kids due to my studies and my wonderful husband stand by me one hundred percent.
When I phoned him to apologise for being such a huge dissappointment, he says " I should have supported you more".
Wrong! He has been nothing more that awesome and I am lucky to have him by my side as any other man would have bailed ages ago.
He wants me to complete my degree, and even though I am wanting to run into the hills, I know I need to finish it. I am no quitter.
I read a quote from one the people I needed to edit this week and it made the tears stop and mage me brave again, brave enough to go on.
Thanks BF for letting me able to post this in just for fun as I feel like some one who has to start from scratch.
I have inserted the quote below that meant so much to me.
"...You find a way, somehow to get through the most horrible things, things you think would kill you. You find a way and you move through the days, one by one, in shock, in despair, but you move. The days pass, one after the other, and you go along with them - occasionally stunned, and not entirely relieved, to find that you are still alive."
- Michelle Richmond (The Year of Fog)
PG: All above board
I am generally a positive person ;but today I was really blown away.
I am fairly smart and really hard working, hence I usually gain success in all endeavours that I take on. I believe in the old adage what you put in is what you get out, hence the twisted addiction to pushing myself all the time.
I have been studying since I left school trying to pursue the corporate ladder , but I am at this stage, who the hell cares anyway. Will this fact be mentioned the day I die? Will this be the fact that I was a good scholar be remembered my children?
I have been studying non stop for the last odd ten years and have progressed onto my Bachelors Commercial Degree in Financial Management. I am in the final stages of my second year subjects but just got my results to say that I failed all three my subjects for the last semester.
When the screen popped up with my results, I heard myself say "No", "Oh No" and the tears came, streaming down my cheeks.
All the sacrifice, all the time away from my beloved husband and friends for what? For what the world wants you to be?
"You can only apply for this job if you have completed your BCom." And of course I merrily plod along.
I am 28 and have not had any kids due to my studies and my wonderful husband stand by me one hundred percent.
When I phoned him to apologise for being such a huge dissappointment, he says " I should have supported you more".
Wrong! He has been nothing more that awesome and I am lucky to have him by my side as any other man would have bailed ages ago.
He wants me to complete my degree, and even though I am wanting to run into the hills, I know I need to finish it. I am no quitter.
I read a quote from one the people I needed to edit this week and it made the tears stop and mage me brave again, brave enough to go on.
Thanks BF for letting me able to post this in just for fun as I feel like some one who has to start from scratch.
I have inserted the quote below that meant so much to me.
"...You find a way, somehow to get through the most horrible things, things you think would kill you. You find a way and you move through the days, one by one, in shock, in despair, but you move. The days pass, one after the other, and you go along with them - occasionally stunned, and not entirely relieved, to find that you are still alive."
- Michelle Richmond (The Year of Fog)