10 years ago today...
It was 10 years ago today that I broke my back.
I was originally planning on writing some long drawn out story-type blog about a boy becoming a man... as I felt by the end of that ordeal I had truly forced myself to grow up quite a bit, and become a lot of the guy you see before you now.
But that just seemed too melodramatic.
It seemed like I was giving the devil its due too much.
My original plans for the day, was to obtain some painkillers, and just zone out for the day.
Have my first "Soma Coma" as we called them when I wrestled... but I have rehearsal tonight.
Truth be told, it's probably better for me to have not done that.
I guess when you've let one event almost define who you are, it's weird when you start to let it go.
It is today I realize, that while it has helped shape who I am... I am not my broken back
It is today I realize, that while it still causes me pain to this day... I am not crippled
And it's today I realize, that no matter what anybody says.
It is possible to keep walking towards your goals and dreams.
I may be kind of moody today.
Switching back and forth from crabby bastard, to cheery bastard.
I guess it just depends on what side of a busted vertebrate my head is on in the moment.
I was originally planning on writing some long drawn out story-type blog about a boy becoming a man... as I felt by the end of that ordeal I had truly forced myself to grow up quite a bit, and become a lot of the guy you see before you now.
But that just seemed too melodramatic.
It seemed like I was giving the devil its due too much.
My original plans for the day, was to obtain some painkillers, and just zone out for the day.
Have my first "Soma Coma" as we called them when I wrestled... but I have rehearsal tonight.
Truth be told, it's probably better for me to have not done that.
I guess when you've let one event almost define who you are, it's weird when you start to let it go.
It is today I realize, that while it has helped shape who I am... I am not my broken back
It is today I realize, that while it still causes me pain to this day... I am not crippled
And it's today I realize, that no matter what anybody says.
It is possible to keep walking towards your goals and dreams.
I may be kind of moody today.
Switching back and forth from crabby bastard, to cheery bastard.
I guess it just depends on what side of a busted vertebrate my head is on in the moment.