"I never leave wet towels on the floor anymore"
Well Adrienne nudged me so I decided I'd post on here for the first time in like 6 months.... but what to say is the question:
I am a few short days from being done with my bachelors degree. My last day is Friday.
I just broke up with Eric Rosales because I caught him attempting to cheat on me. Oh yeah, remember how I was so broken hearted about him back in November of 2003... well he called me two years later and we got together. Guess I skipped over that.
Johnny from last spring sort of attempted to do something again last semester and we went out again but still nothing happened... I am still at an utter loss to guess what that's about.
In August I had a spree of getting involved with my sister's ex boyfriends... which was of course a bad plan.
My final class of undergraduate school is on Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
I totally am way dorkier than I was this time last year.
I don't know people. I feel like I've lost the fun in life in some ways... I guess that's growing up for you. I miss the past but would/could never go back to it. I've changed I think. My idea of fun these days is to stay in with a friend and watch dvds and eat things that involve cheese. That's not to say I don't go out occasionally... Em totally prompts me to do so when she's around.... but I just feel much more boring than I used to be. I am thinking maybe I don't want to take as long off from school as I initially was thinking... maybe I'll apply for fall 2007 not 2008. Everything I could really do between now and grad school just seems too pointless now. A while back I wanted to let loose and be young but now that I am facing the future I am just so afraid to fail at being a grownup. I don't think being out of school will help the pressure... it will just make me feel like a loser for not being in it at the time. I mean I want some time to prove to myself I can support myself, live on my own, pay my bills... but that's going to get old fast. Nothing I do is ever good enough for myself and I've gotten past the point where I can pretend it is. I'm wearing my glasses most of the time now and I think I am slowly getting to be one of those dorky academics... I don't really mind though. I mean that's the life plan. Now I just need to get into a good grad program and meet a fellow nerd to fall in love with. I sort of miss people from my past though. So how are you guys?
I am a few short days from being done with my bachelors degree. My last day is Friday.
I just broke up with Eric Rosales because I caught him attempting to cheat on me. Oh yeah, remember how I was so broken hearted about him back in November of 2003... well he called me two years later and we got together. Guess I skipped over that.
Johnny from last spring sort of attempted to do something again last semester and we went out again but still nothing happened... I am still at an utter loss to guess what that's about.
In August I had a spree of getting involved with my sister's ex boyfriends... which was of course a bad plan.
My final class of undergraduate school is on Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
I totally am way dorkier than I was this time last year.
I don't know people. I feel like I've lost the fun in life in some ways... I guess that's growing up for you. I miss the past but would/could never go back to it. I've changed I think. My idea of fun these days is to stay in with a friend and watch dvds and eat things that involve cheese. That's not to say I don't go out occasionally... Em totally prompts me to do so when she's around.... but I just feel much more boring than I used to be. I am thinking maybe I don't want to take as long off from school as I initially was thinking... maybe I'll apply for fall 2007 not 2008. Everything I could really do between now and grad school just seems too pointless now. A while back I wanted to let loose and be young but now that I am facing the future I am just so afraid to fail at being a grownup. I don't think being out of school will help the pressure... it will just make me feel like a loser for not being in it at the time. I mean I want some time to prove to myself I can support myself, live on my own, pay my bills... but that's going to get old fast. Nothing I do is ever good enough for myself and I've gotten past the point where I can pretend it is. I'm wearing my glasses most of the time now and I think I am slowly getting to be one of those dorky academics... I don't really mind though. I mean that's the life plan. Now I just need to get into a good grad program and meet a fellow nerd to fall in love with. I sort of miss people from my past though. So how are you guys?