...found...

[crzynbtfl]

found myself
confined in the dark.
dark walls, dark blankets, dark sheets.
lies and manipulation
lust and confusion
unfulfilled longings during the drive home.

found myself
sharp, silver rectangles
wavering between fragile fingertips.
streams of red
rose from beneath.
a path for each failure
each time i thought you weren't listening
each time the tears were not enough.

found myself
falling again
wind in my face
bright lights repositioned
hoping to land
not into the old
but into the new
into you

and there you were
right where i left you.
eternally
and unconditionally
waiting, working, willing
to let me try again.