Hush little baby don't say a word
It irritates me when I go out of my way to do something nice for someone and they could care less about it. When they take advantage of the situation and when they expect me to further inconvienance myself in order to accomodate their selfish needs. Ah the curse of being a 'giver'
Life is good, busy as usual but good. I made it through the three tests this week and only have one more to go before a slight break. I guess I am doing pretty well but I would like to be doing better. I often find that I lack the motivation. The part of me that has the drive to study in advance for a test is missing, and always has been. Problem is its finally starting to catch up to me. However, on a better academic note, I calculated my current biology grade and have an 88!! With the addition of the most recent test that should go up even more. I've really been working my butt off to do well in that class and never would have thought I could be doing as well as I am.
Dance is good. We performed on Friday night two very short pieces. I hate that I have to dance the same event as the steppers. It creates a competition and a hostility between the two teams that I just don't think is necessary. I don't have a problem with them and I respect them a lot for what they do, but I just think it were best if we were treated as to completely separate entities within the school. Performing at different events etc. I hate that I feel as though the dancers get overlooked and I know people arent learned about dance don't have the appreciation for what we do, but it doesn't keep it from hurting. Its a lot like band for me. Yeah, it was wonderful to see the band go from everyone leaving the stands during halftime freshman year to everyone entering the stands during halftime my senior year. But all the same part of me hated that. part of me hated that those people didnt appreciate what we were really about, the music and the marching. What they liked was the dance, the beat, the drum solo. I suppose its a concept I am just going to have to adjust to because I am sure I will deal with it the rest of my life. Not everyone is ever going to understand what you do, or how much effort it is or something, and its always going to be frustrating.
Friday night Michelle, her sister, and I went to see Finding Nemo on ice. It was the most wonderful thing. I've never seen any of the "on ice" productions and it was actually quite cool to see all of the things they could do and effects they could create.
I felt a little silly being one of very few groups of people without children, but it was definitely worth it. We bought snow cones and a girl in the marta station walking by commented to her mother "mommy...look!! its teeeeenagers eating snow cones?!" Haha. Good times.
Last night was big sister revelation. It was so much fun to be on the other end of things and I am so excited to have fabiola as my little. I wish I could be there for initiation, damn Roadhouse Grill.
