i'm so heavy in your arms.

[crzy4dashboard]

so i made it through work week right? and as scared as i was all the time, i made it through completely successfully. i made friends. i bonded. all that stuff i was so afraid that wouldn't happen or work for me, totally happened with minimal effort from me. it was just natural. being a sorority actually is everything they say it is, a group of 50+ girls who are just like you but still unique enough that you can be friends without being carbon copies of each other. it was awesome.

the whole aida thing sucked, but i'm not worried about it anymore. i thought i'd never make new friends, and i did. i'm still afraid of everyone leaving, but corbin helped me to see that really it's just people all over the country (and even the world) that i'll get to visit. growing up is the most unreal thing i've ever experienced.

and watching isis go off to school, who's like my theater baby for real is completely wonderful. after high school i thought i would never be on stage again because it was too unrealistic. i thought that that was as good as my voice would ever get. and then i see how much i've grown, how beautiful my voice can be, and it's the most ridiculous feeling ever. i can do something with what i love, even if it's unrealistic.

so that's where i'm at today. which is nice.