Tick Tock tick... tock..
Hey all, this weekend is going to be hell for me and Bill. Ugh… The ex is finally coming to get her shit, took like 2 years mostly due to Bill putting off. There is still a lot of unresolved emotion there, and he’s not looking forward to the lovely event. Nor am I, because he’s a sniveling coward and has the complete inability to accept fault for his own decisions and actions so when people assume some stupid idea was just mine and mine alone he simply says yeah he told me not to but I did which is not fucking true.
Like the cats, 2 of the 3 cats we have are HIS CATS. That he INSISTED on keeping when I tried to get rid of them. One is mine/my moms. But when the cats are brought up, they are all mine and he wants them gone.
Dog, he bought me the fucking dog, his name is on the paperwork, it was paid with HIS credit card, but that was all my decision too.
I tried to get him to reschedule it because we need time to clean the house up a bit, because we have 3 cats we aren’t there 13 days, and we need time to clean the litter boxes, and any little messes that may be about but he scheduled it for the exact same time we are going to be home giving us 0 time to clean almost guaranteeing his house is going to be a mess, and that shit is going to be said and of course its all going to be blamed on me because he doesn’t have the backbone to admit he is part of the problem too.
Can you see how not amused I am with that shit? On top of this, he’s still in love with her, that whole he loves me bull seems to have been a complete lie, he doesn’t remember 90% of what happened prior to our marriage, instead he is stuck on his alcoholic ex despite my best efforts to be a good wife I am at my wits end on this. When she says something he just agrees, he’s done it several times and said mean things that hurt my feelings like I am fat. Yeah. If we get through this weekend still married I will be very surprised.
So in short... can anyone tell me why I am still married?
Like the cats, 2 of the 3 cats we have are HIS CATS. That he INSISTED on keeping when I tried to get rid of them. One is mine/my moms. But when the cats are brought up, they are all mine and he wants them gone.
Dog, he bought me the fucking dog, his name is on the paperwork, it was paid with HIS credit card, but that was all my decision too.
I tried to get him to reschedule it because we need time to clean the house up a bit, because we have 3 cats we aren’t there 13 days, and we need time to clean the litter boxes, and any little messes that may be about but he scheduled it for the exact same time we are going to be home giving us 0 time to clean almost guaranteeing his house is going to be a mess, and that shit is going to be said and of course its all going to be blamed on me because he doesn’t have the backbone to admit he is part of the problem too.
Can you see how not amused I am with that shit? On top of this, he’s still in love with her, that whole he loves me bull seems to have been a complete lie, he doesn’t remember 90% of what happened prior to our marriage, instead he is stuck on his alcoholic ex despite my best efforts to be a good wife I am at my wits end on this. When she says something he just agrees, he’s done it several times and said mean things that hurt my feelings like I am fat. Yeah. If we get through this weekend still married I will be very surprised.
- Ever since we got married the nice Bill whom told me all those sweet things like I am beautiful, and that if his mom didn't like me oh well cause he's a big boy and she will just have to get used to me because he loves me and he's old enough to chose whom he loves... that man has completely disappeared. Now all I get to hear is random tirades about how beautiful she is, how she doesn't age, how he feels bad about how he ended it with her and hurting her. You know the kind of hurtful things that show he is still more emotionally invested with her then you.
- He never sticks up for me ever, but let me say shit about her and he's quick to stick up for her.
- He takes all credit for any good idea I have, but all bad ideas are my fault.
- He has no interest in teaming with me anymore.
- The words I love you have not left his mouth in over a year unless I said it first.
- He buys me nothing for any special day, including my birthday, valentines day, mothers day, our anniversary, christmas always has the same excuse for why, which basically means 'I didn't care' and swears he's never bought gifts for people yet I have an entire bag full of cards from him to his ex for the same days and other nonnormal gifting days like Hallow-fucking-ween.
- He refuses to have a joint account on anything, period.
- He has told his friends and family that I am stealing money from him, that I am lazy, and that he hates my son. During last years visit his friend came to visit us at the hotel while I was visiting Zaniel, we needed cat food, I asked if he wanted to go get cat food or if he wanted to watch Zaniel while i did because I didn't want ot take Zaniel to a petstore. He said he'd watch him. Fine. Apparently he told his friend and his mother that he was irriated I had asked him to watch Zaniel he never told me this and I never said he had to but what the fuck dude he knew I had a fucking son, if he had no interest in being his step dad WHY DID HE GET IN FUCKINGVOLED WITH ME! I made it NO secret Zaniel was my son and I fully intended on having him live with us eventually.
So in short... can anyone tell me why I am still married?