Day 5
So I caved in and talked to this girl after a couple of days. It was driving me nuts not talking to her, I just hope she doesn't get the impression that I'm clingy.
It's strange, I never would have thought I could ever fall for a girl like this, nothing in my life ever gave me the slightest hint. Now, it's hard to go through a whole day without thinking of her.
I just wish I had a better impression of...control? Like, when open is too open. I think I'm too honest some times, maybe my parents should have raised me with a little more deceit in my blood.
Either way, I think I'm going to try calling her this weekend. It will be the first time we talk (not chat) since we met. Maybe the tones in her voice will give me more insight. I hope it goes alright...I'm nervous.
Tomorrow...back to work. I'm thinking about finding a new job, things are starting to get stale at this one...but where would I go? And now more than ever I have less inclination to go back to the states.
It's strange, I never would have thought I could ever fall for a girl like this, nothing in my life ever gave me the slightest hint. Now, it's hard to go through a whole day without thinking of her.
I just wish I had a better impression of...control? Like, when open is too open. I think I'm too honest some times, maybe my parents should have raised me with a little more deceit in my blood.
Either way, I think I'm going to try calling her this weekend. It will be the first time we talk (not chat) since we met. Maybe the tones in her voice will give me more insight. I hope it goes alright...I'm nervous.
Tomorrow...back to work. I'm thinking about finding a new job, things are starting to get stale at this one...but where would I go? And now more than ever I have less inclination to go back to the states.