"These Streets" by Paolo Nutini
"Cross the border,
Into the big bad world
where it takes you 'bout an hour
just to cross the road
just to stumble across another poor old soul from
The dreary old lanes to the high-street madness
I fight with my brain to believe my eyes
and it's harder than you think
to delay the sadness
that creeps up my spine
and haunts me through the night
life is good and the girls are gorgeuos
suddenly the air smells much greener now
and I'm wandering 'round
with a half pack of cigarettes
searching for the change that I've lost somehow
These streets have too many names for me
I'm used to Glenfield road and spending my time down in Orchy
I'll get used to this eventually
I know, I know
where'd the days go? When all we did was play
And the stress that we were under wasn't stress at all
just a run and a jump into a harmless fall from
walking by a high-rise to a landmark square
you see millions of people with millions of cares
And I struggle to the train to make my way home
I look at the people as they sit there alone
Life is good, and the sun is shining
Everybody floods to their ideal place
And the children all smile as a boat shuffled by them
Trying to pretend that they've got some space
These streets have too many names for me
I'm used to Glenfield road and spending my time down in Orchy
I'll get used to this eventually
I know, I know
Life is good, and the girls are gorgeous
suddenly the air smells much greener now
and I'm wondering 'round
with a half pack of cigarettes
searching for the change that I've lost somehow
These streets have too many names for me
I'm used to Glenfield road and spending my time down in Orchy
I'll get used to this eventually
I know, I know"
I've come to the conclusion that I need to write more. I've found that working in a slightly technical field has caused me to lose that creative streak that I used to enjoy. Or could it really be, that I've grown out of the "woe is me" attitude that I used to write about. Someone once told me that some of their best writing came when they were unhappy, sad, depressed, frustrated, and on and on. But for me, at this point in my life, I'm none of those. Well, actually I might be a little frustrated with school but other than that I can't think of anything else.
I might not necessarily be living where I want to live as I am missing my family like crazy but I have noticed that I call them so much more and I have more meaningful conversations with them. This distance has really given me an appreciation for them that I had not had before. And it has allowed me to develop grown-up relationships with them, whereas before I may have taken them for granted being that they were insanely accessible. One thing that I am frustrated with though is how horrible I have become at keeping in touch with my friends. And I honestly have never been good at this. But, by some grace of God, I have been blessed with insanely good-hearted, forgiving, and truly wonderful friends. They have completely been understanding of this flaw of mine and continue to love me despite my inability to consistently pick up a phone, write an email or even send a letter. This blog is my first step towards changing that. If I can remember to write at least weekly, maybe then I can begin to make calls or emails. Here's to October resolutions.
Last week I found out that I got into the BSN program at Grand Canyon University here in Phoenix! I am so excited and can't wait to finally get started on this career. It one of the better programs here in the valley and one of only two BSN programs. They also have a direct program with my current employer so all of my classes and clinicals will be where I work. I start in January and totally can not wait!
In preparation of this gigantic new part of my life, I am needing to make a decision regarding where I will work starting in January. I currently work in neurosurgery at the BNI. Which is really one of the leading neuro centers in the country, quite possibly the world. The head honcho is pretty much the number one neurovascular surgeon in the world. We have had patients come from Ireland, New York City, Australia, and all over the globe to have him work with them. It is really an awesome place to work. And the nature of the O.R. is fun. That's pretty much the best word to describe it. It's a fun place to work and it's a tight-knit group of people. It can be at times tough to break into the group but when you do, it is totally worth it. I love going to work, granted I hate the 5:30 alarm clock going off. But I love the work. I enjoy being part of a team. I love working with the surgeons, the nurses, the anesthesiologists and everyone else that makes the surgeries run smoothly. Never would I have imagined that I would be doing the work I'm doing now, being so close to the human brain. The only real negatives are the smell of burning flesh, which I think you never can really get used to, and the length of cases at times. But working in the operating room is pretty awesome.
So my dilemma is that, unfortunately, operating rooms do not run 24/7. It's pretty much 9-5, 5 days a week. I have the great opportunity to move to Epilepsy and work as a END tech up there in order to get some weekend hours in. We have seizure patients who willingly come into the hospital for days to undergo epilepsy studies. It's nice working with patients that have chosen to come to the hospital. In epilepsy, I would be one tech as opposed to one tech out of 10 down in surgery. But I could work 2 twelve hour shifts during the week and split a twelve hour shift on the weekends. In surgery I would only be guaranteed 2 twelves during the week. I need at least 32 hours a week to maintain my status as full-time for my benefits and tuition reimbursement. I can split between the OR and epilepsy but I think that maybe that would not be a good idea. I think focusing on one would make me a better asset to the department I choose.
I have to make this decision by Monday, which as we all know is tomorrow.
Into the big bad world
where it takes you 'bout an hour
just to cross the road
just to stumble across another poor old soul from
The dreary old lanes to the high-street madness
I fight with my brain to believe my eyes
and it's harder than you think
to delay the sadness
that creeps up my spine
and haunts me through the night
life is good and the girls are gorgeuos
suddenly the air smells much greener now
and I'm wandering 'round
with a half pack of cigarettes
searching for the change that I've lost somehow
These streets have too many names for me
I'm used to Glenfield road and spending my time down in Orchy
I'll get used to this eventually
I know, I know
where'd the days go? When all we did was play
And the stress that we were under wasn't stress at all
just a run and a jump into a harmless fall from
walking by a high-rise to a landmark square
you see millions of people with millions of cares
And I struggle to the train to make my way home
I look at the people as they sit there alone
Life is good, and the sun is shining
Everybody floods to their ideal place
And the children all smile as a boat shuffled by them
Trying to pretend that they've got some space
These streets have too many names for me
I'm used to Glenfield road and spending my time down in Orchy
I'll get used to this eventually
I know, I know
Life is good, and the girls are gorgeous
suddenly the air smells much greener now
and I'm wondering 'round
with a half pack of cigarettes
searching for the change that I've lost somehow
These streets have too many names for me
I'm used to Glenfield road and spending my time down in Orchy
I'll get used to this eventually
I know, I know"
I've come to the conclusion that I need to write more. I've found that working in a slightly technical field has caused me to lose that creative streak that I used to enjoy. Or could it really be, that I've grown out of the "woe is me" attitude that I used to write about. Someone once told me that some of their best writing came when they were unhappy, sad, depressed, frustrated, and on and on. But for me, at this point in my life, I'm none of those. Well, actually I might be a little frustrated with school but other than that I can't think of anything else.
I might not necessarily be living where I want to live as I am missing my family like crazy but I have noticed that I call them so much more and I have more meaningful conversations with them. This distance has really given me an appreciation for them that I had not had before. And it has allowed me to develop grown-up relationships with them, whereas before I may have taken them for granted being that they were insanely accessible. One thing that I am frustrated with though is how horrible I have become at keeping in touch with my friends. And I honestly have never been good at this. But, by some grace of God, I have been blessed with insanely good-hearted, forgiving, and truly wonderful friends. They have completely been understanding of this flaw of mine and continue to love me despite my inability to consistently pick up a phone, write an email or even send a letter. This blog is my first step towards changing that. If I can remember to write at least weekly, maybe then I can begin to make calls or emails. Here's to October resolutions.
Last week I found out that I got into the BSN program at Grand Canyon University here in Phoenix! I am so excited and can't wait to finally get started on this career. It one of the better programs here in the valley and one of only two BSN programs. They also have a direct program with my current employer so all of my classes and clinicals will be where I work. I start in January and totally can not wait!
In preparation of this gigantic new part of my life, I am needing to make a decision regarding where I will work starting in January. I currently work in neurosurgery at the BNI. Which is really one of the leading neuro centers in the country, quite possibly the world. The head honcho is pretty much the number one neurovascular surgeon in the world. We have had patients come from Ireland, New York City, Australia, and all over the globe to have him work with them. It is really an awesome place to work. And the nature of the O.R. is fun. That's pretty much the best word to describe it. It's a fun place to work and it's a tight-knit group of people. It can be at times tough to break into the group but when you do, it is totally worth it. I love going to work, granted I hate the 5:30 alarm clock going off. But I love the work. I enjoy being part of a team. I love working with the surgeons, the nurses, the anesthesiologists and everyone else that makes the surgeries run smoothly. Never would I have imagined that I would be doing the work I'm doing now, being so close to the human brain. The only real negatives are the smell of burning flesh, which I think you never can really get used to, and the length of cases at times. But working in the operating room is pretty awesome.
So my dilemma is that, unfortunately, operating rooms do not run 24/7. It's pretty much 9-5, 5 days a week. I have the great opportunity to move to Epilepsy and work as a END tech up there in order to get some weekend hours in. We have seizure patients who willingly come into the hospital for days to undergo epilepsy studies. It's nice working with patients that have chosen to come to the hospital. In epilepsy, I would be one tech as opposed to one tech out of 10 down in surgery. But I could work 2 twelve hour shifts during the week and split a twelve hour shift on the weekends. In surgery I would only be guaranteed 2 twelves during the week. I need at least 32 hours a week to maintain my status as full-time for my benefits and tuition reimbursement. I can split between the OR and epilepsy but I think that maybe that would not be a good idea. I think focusing on one would make me a better asset to the department I choose.
I have to make this decision by Monday, which as we all know is tomorrow.