sundayyy
i finished my college essay today. it was really sucking when i first wrote it earlier in the week, but i switched the topic and re-wrote it in a different way and it came out much better. it still needs some work, but it'll do for now.
other than that this weekend has consisted of hanging out doing nothing, studying for finals, ordering too much chinese food anddd the highlight: an intense game of spoons friday night. jack lost and threw a temper tantrum, as predicted (haha). oh, and trashing a certain person's ex...cause well, let's face it. he's kind of an ass. it's okay though, i feel like it's gonna catch up with him in the form of some unfortunate STD.
i'm feeling a little burdened right now. i don't know if that's the right word. but i miss the light mood of the summer. everything was relaxed--i mean, it was crazy, but the atmosphere was perfect. now it's like "OMG i'm not going to get into college" and "i'm going to fail finals" and--don't get me wrong, i'm happy to be here when someone needs to talk-- but i've been hearing a lot of depressing problems. its just a lot to take. and i kind of feel like no one's on my side anymore. i guess that's the main thing. i think i may have accepted it though. it's just me. and i think i'm okay with that, sometimes i even like that feeling; it's made me very independent. but right now i miss my whole support system. maybe i'm just anxious for vacation.
i decided after i drop tressa on friday night, i'm going to stop at leah's house on the way up to boxford. i'm kind of excited; i didn't think i was going to get to see her until like....a really long time. but now i am! and jay will be there too if he's not too busy being a loser.
this week is going to be crazyyy. i thought i was going to have all this time to do whatever i want, but yesterday i sat down and looked at my schedule and realized i was very wrong. there's gonna be studying, exams, review sessions, college applications, pedicures, mini-massages and roadtrips all over the place. actually just one roadtrip. but it's gonna be sweet--except for all the exam/studying stuff. i guess it's better than classes+homework+papers though.
other than that this weekend has consisted of hanging out doing nothing, studying for finals, ordering too much chinese food anddd the highlight: an intense game of spoons friday night. jack lost and threw a temper tantrum, as predicted (haha). oh, and trashing a certain person's ex...cause well, let's face it. he's kind of an ass. it's okay though, i feel like it's gonna catch up with him in the form of some unfortunate STD.
i'm feeling a little burdened right now. i don't know if that's the right word. but i miss the light mood of the summer. everything was relaxed--i mean, it was crazy, but the atmosphere was perfect. now it's like "OMG i'm not going to get into college" and "i'm going to fail finals" and--don't get me wrong, i'm happy to be here when someone needs to talk-- but i've been hearing a lot of depressing problems. its just a lot to take. and i kind of feel like no one's on my side anymore. i guess that's the main thing. i think i may have accepted it though. it's just me. and i think i'm okay with that, sometimes i even like that feeling; it's made me very independent. but right now i miss my whole support system. maybe i'm just anxious for vacation.
i decided after i drop tressa on friday night, i'm going to stop at leah's house on the way up to boxford. i'm kind of excited; i didn't think i was going to get to see her until like....a really long time. but now i am! and jay will be there too if he's not too busy being a loser.
this week is going to be crazyyy. i thought i was going to have all this time to do whatever i want, but yesterday i sat down and looked at my schedule and realized i was very wrong. there's gonna be studying, exams, review sessions, college applications, pedicures, mini-massages and roadtrips all over the place. actually just one roadtrip. but it's gonna be sweet--except for all the exam/studying stuff. i guess it's better than classes+homework+papers though.