I fucked up!!!!!
I wanted to test it and make sure it wasn't sage incense. And taking salvia really is all about the passage you open up within your mind. LESSON LEARNED! As Steve went to bed I looked boldly towards my pipe and spilled the vile of 20x into the bowl. I retreated in fear scooping up little flakes knowing well it was too much.
So I held the flame and sucked softly.. and then sucked hard... And held. The embers of the fire sparked and crackled all onto my hand. I let my mind know it was ok. As moments later I tried to access the situation unsuccessful quickly, repeadedly forgetting I took Salvia. Then I began asking myself, " Why? Oh no... it's ok.. no wait.. I did? Why?" In a loop! And then it felt like acid was burning, no biting my body in half. I felt like the front part of my body was biten in half by some acidic monster with wretched teeth. I t felt like.. hold your mouth open, like the whole front half of my body was an open mouth. I became dissoriented and reached for Steve, " I just smoked salvia, just letting you know. And I'm tripping."
"Hey get up." I shake him. And he is the utmost motherfucker possible to me. I sat still for a moment trying to pull myself up from all the melting and halved feeling.
I was fighting for survival!!!!
And finally I felt very apologetic knowing I disrepected the plant. And I just apologized to my innermost feeling and it lightened up. There was no struggling against it. Just a strong will to remain concious and to be forgiven. And suddenly, all the acidic burning teeth feeling let up. And my panic and terror lightened up gently and then I felt like just smiling. But Steve kept things pissy...
So I exploded. Like an Aries on fire I was! "How dare you treat me like shit!" So on and so fourth. " Do you not have any common sense at all?! Do you realize how you treat people, you disrepectful little shit!" Just kaaabooooow! Salvia seems to bring out the stronger qualities in me I need. Like after trying it last night I suddenly felt compelled to study the problem of whichever fan had been buzzing like a bitch in the computer, and solve it by purchasing another little 40 mm ones on Newegg. Oi, the one on the motherboard.
I am still freaking shaken up, but greatful my trip ended. It would not have been benificial to me, it would have been punishment. Oh man.. Next time I am doing this in the most sacred way possible. I almost seriously fucked up. I don't know how I managed to get myself over to the bed and logically explain to the cranky awakening Steve what happened.. As I felt myself melting, open so vunerable to the air around me.
I'm listening to the Highlander main theme and feeling better. Oh gee man... Salvia demands respect! And she will take care of you.
So I held the flame and sucked softly.. and then sucked hard... And held. The embers of the fire sparked and crackled all onto my hand. I let my mind know it was ok. As moments later I tried to access the situation unsuccessful quickly, repeadedly forgetting I took Salvia. Then I began asking myself, " Why? Oh no... it's ok.. no wait.. I did? Why?" In a loop! And then it felt like acid was burning, no biting my body in half. I felt like the front part of my body was biten in half by some acidic monster with wretched teeth. I t felt like.. hold your mouth open, like the whole front half of my body was an open mouth. I became dissoriented and reached for Steve, " I just smoked salvia, just letting you know. And I'm tripping."
"Hey get up." I shake him. And he is the utmost motherfucker possible to me. I sat still for a moment trying to pull myself up from all the melting and halved feeling.
I was fighting for survival!!!!
And finally I felt very apologetic knowing I disrepected the plant. And I just apologized to my innermost feeling and it lightened up. There was no struggling against it. Just a strong will to remain concious and to be forgiven. And suddenly, all the acidic burning teeth feeling let up. And my panic and terror lightened up gently and then I felt like just smiling. But Steve kept things pissy...
So I exploded. Like an Aries on fire I was! "How dare you treat me like shit!" So on and so fourth. " Do you not have any common sense at all?! Do you realize how you treat people, you disrepectful little shit!" Just kaaabooooow! Salvia seems to bring out the stronger qualities in me I need. Like after trying it last night I suddenly felt compelled to study the problem of whichever fan had been buzzing like a bitch in the computer, and solve it by purchasing another little 40 mm ones on Newegg. Oi, the one on the motherboard.
I am still freaking shaken up, but greatful my trip ended. It would not have been benificial to me, it would have been punishment. Oh man.. Next time I am doing this in the most sacred way possible. I almost seriously fucked up. I don't know how I managed to get myself over to the bed and logically explain to the cranky awakening Steve what happened.. As I felt myself melting, open so vunerable to the air around me.
I'm listening to the Highlander main theme and feeling better. Oh gee man... Salvia demands respect! And she will take care of you.