I fucked up
I really fucked up this time. Back in March I lied to him, and yesterday I wanted to tell him the truth. So I told him and he asked me to leave. So I did. I tried calling him this afternoon and hes ignoring my calls. The only reason I lied to him was because I was ashamed of my past and I wanted to set everything straight. I'm such a fucking idiot. I don't know what to do if he were to break up with me. I dont blame him but I dont know what I would do. I dont know what I would do, I cant live without him. I prey to god everything works out because I dont know what I would do without him!
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if only you'd never speak to me
the way that you do
if only you'd never speak like that
it's like listening to
a breaking heart
a falling sky
fire go out and friendship die
I wish you felt the way that i still do
if only you'd never look at me
the way that you do
if only you'd never look like that
when i look at you
I see face like stone
eyes of ice
mouth so sweetly telling lies
I wish you felt the way that i still do
the way that i still do
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
if only you'd never pull from me
the way that you do
if only you'd never pull like that
when i'm with you
I feel hopeless hands helplessly
pulling you back close to me
I wish you felt the way that i still do
the way that i still do
if only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
~*Cut*~
if only you'd never speak to me
the way that you do
if only you'd never speak like that
it's like listening to
a breaking heart
a falling sky
fire go out and friendship die
I wish you felt the way that i still do
if only you'd never look at me
the way that you do
if only you'd never look like that
when i look at you
I see face like stone
eyes of ice
mouth so sweetly telling lies
I wish you felt the way that i still do
the way that i still do
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
if only you'd never pull from me
the way that you do
if only you'd never pull like that
when i'm with you
I feel hopeless hands helplessly
pulling you back close to me
I wish you felt the way that i still do
the way that i still do
if only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone