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i am hurt - but for now i will shelve you. i have more things to worry about, and i refuse to let you be one of them. i refuse to be hurt because of you. - what a stupid attempt to feel better, really.
this is very déjà vu. you are not the first one, though of course you are different. you have always been.
people are getting very trying - but i guess this time i know my ground better. i know where i can lean and not feel the concrete give way. my frustration is building.......but i will do my best. it's the only thing i can do, even when i just want to hide away.
final thoughts for this post are that..you need this. and you need them. and you need time and space. and honestly what did i expect. i will re-learn to expect nothing. i cannot afford this kind of hope when i am already just barely afloat.
this is very déjà vu. you are not the first one, though of course you are different. you have always been.
people are getting very trying - but i guess this time i know my ground better. i know where i can lean and not feel the concrete give way. my frustration is building.......but i will do my best. it's the only thing i can do, even when i just want to hide away.
final thoughts for this post are that..you need this. and you need them. and you need time and space. and honestly what did i expect. i will re-learn to expect nothing. i cannot afford this kind of hope when i am already just barely afloat.