thought of the day
why are people so fucked up...i mean i dont understand i guess i used to be like them..i guess i have learned my lessons and dont feel the need to be someone i am not...i will admit i was a bad pesron i still am! but i have made a decision to be a better person and to try to be true to myself and the people i love...i fuck up all the time i feel fuckin terrible when i do i hate myself for it i can admit this to myself and the people around me but in the end...my feelings are genuine....i feel cheated...some people are cold some people are users and some people are just fucked...do people really care or do they just say they do...i dont know...i just dont fucking know...is there anyone genuine in the world...or are well all lying cheating using bastards? i choose to believe that there are genuine people in teh world and i have put my time love and trust into people and i hope that these people are the peopel i think they are...i sometimes wonder..you konw its so easy to fuck someone over..it wouldnt be the first time it has happend and i know last time wont be the last...i guess i just wonder when is the next time is it soon or will it not happend for a while..will it happen a few times all at once..will my life fall appart again(of course) i just sit and think about all these things...i dont worry about it...i just think..i know it wil hurt me i know it will shock me and i know i will get trough it but honesty is all i ask for...if you are going to fuck me over do it honestly!