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So, what do ya think? What I think doesn't matter. I'm hoping to get over Krystal, but I still love her and its eating me like an acid. Every time I try to move away I hurt her, but every time I get close she hurts me. I don't know what to do, so I pray for death to make that decision for me. She's hurt right now and I would die to stop her suffering. Which is why its called self-righteous suicide. Without me there would have been no distrust. Without me she would never have loved anyone but Matt. Without me everything will go back to normal. I've never been loved before and after this will probably never be loved again. I sacrificed my happiness so that they could be happy. Now I sacrifice my life for them to have no more reasons to fight. I won't neccesarily have to die to do this, but kill all happiness in my life. Doesn't that make me dead? Life's not worth living either way, but God as my witness I'll never take my own life.