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I'd like to start by apologizing to Raye, for those of you who seen my post on her lj know that i was pretty harsh, most of that rant was a spew of insults, and if i actually have any serious problems with her, maybe i shouldn't leave her messages like post-it notes. This doesn't mean i totally agree with the post she had, but i am sorry for the cruel way i went about stating my anger. Raye, i'll talk to you about it on civil terms some other time, or maybe not, just consider it water under the bridge, k.
Secondly, sometimes i let my anger get the best of me, it's been happening quite frequently as of late, but i don't like who i'm becoming. If i could stop it all now i would, maybe i can, i'm really not sure. I have a few people i considered my friends chuck bars of soap into my locker a school, then harrass me for two months, i have a job where i teach 35 six year olds everyday crap, and i only get 60 bucks every two weeks, my girlfriend causes me more problems then i know what to do with, I finally got back to being "good" friends with tia and brian(there was a little bit of a problem between me and brian), and then i finally get back to having fun and having a few friends and then Matt and Kelly end up pissed at me, hmmmm....interesting now what's wrong, and why is it that i can talk to kelly on the phone and everything's ok, but only to find out she's angry at me on a fucking lj post. People, even if you don't like me understand this, i'm a very straight forward person, i say what i think, but to your face. Gimme a fucking brake, i'm mad at you so i'm going to leave an angry message on my lj....why? so that when i confront you about it you can say, "Well i was just angry" or "that wasn't meant for you", this is bullshit. Kelly i dont know what the fuck your problem is, really if you're that shallow, i dont know if i want to know. I've been your friend thruout i dont talk shit behind your back, i dont make you do things you don't want to do, and i dont fucking lie to you. I even hide the fact that your philosophy with david is the less he knows the better. Maybe im wrong, maybe you and david making out behind me the other day wasn't because i talked to your him. I'm sorry apparently im a horrible person now. Seriously what the fuck is your problem? I've been as nice to you as physically possible and you talk trash about me on your fucking lj. That's really low, and assuming that i did something to offend you, like i obviously did. Yeah, i came over with matt to your house, oops. Sorry about that, its just that i had been planning with him for like three days to go job hunting and thats the sole reason i was even on that side of town, i came home from school with him thinking we were gonna hit the mall and apply for jobs, and then he decided to tell me(while we were already at krystals) that the two of you were going to the movies, AND I WAS TOLD SPECIFICALLY THAT I WAS NOT ALOWWED TO GO!, so now im stuck on the south side with matt being my only ride home, so we go and get you. When we get to your house i went into the bathroom and grabbed a q-tip, now im sorry if that offended you, see the thing is, and all my friends know this, that my house is community property, everyone just goes into my cupboards and fridge, and i dont care, but if i have one pet peave its when my ears itch, so when i got there i grabbed a q-tip to cure that. Now this doesn't seem to be a problem to me, but apparently enough for you to mention it in an lj post, thanks its great to know that all the time we spent together you were a real good friend. All the time we spent together, undone by a q-tip, thats great. This seems really fucking stupid to me, if you had a problem with me going into the cabinet, you should have said something, and i had no choice on wether or not i was at your house, and i spent the entire time sleeping, so take the stick out of your ass, because you have way more serious problems then, Erik wasn't invited to my house and now im angry, get a fucking grip on reality.
Secondly, sometimes i let my anger get the best of me, it's been happening quite frequently as of late, but i don't like who i'm becoming. If i could stop it all now i would, maybe i can, i'm really not sure. I have a few people i considered my friends chuck bars of soap into my locker a school, then harrass me for two months, i have a job where i teach 35 six year olds everyday crap, and i only get 60 bucks every two weeks, my girlfriend causes me more problems then i know what to do with, I finally got back to being "good" friends with tia and brian(there was a little bit of a problem between me and brian), and then i finally get back to having fun and having a few friends and then Matt and Kelly end up pissed at me, hmmmm....interesting now what's wrong, and why is it that i can talk to kelly on the phone and everything's ok, but only to find out she's angry at me on a fucking lj post. People, even if you don't like me understand this, i'm a very straight forward person, i say what i think, but to your face. Gimme a fucking brake, i'm mad at you so i'm going to leave an angry message on my lj....why? so that when i confront you about it you can say, "Well i was just angry" or "that wasn't meant for you", this is bullshit. Kelly i dont know what the fuck your problem is, really if you're that shallow, i dont know if i want to know. I've been your friend thruout i dont talk shit behind your back, i dont make you do things you don't want to do, and i dont fucking lie to you. I even hide the fact that your philosophy with david is the less he knows the better. Maybe im wrong, maybe you and david making out behind me the other day wasn't because i talked to your him. I'm sorry apparently im a horrible person now. Seriously what the fuck is your problem? I've been as nice to you as physically possible and you talk trash about me on your fucking lj. That's really low, and assuming that i did something to offend you, like i obviously did. Yeah, i came over with matt to your house, oops. Sorry about that, its just that i had been planning with him for like three days to go job hunting and thats the sole reason i was even on that side of town, i came home from school with him thinking we were gonna hit the mall and apply for jobs, and then he decided to tell me(while we were already at krystals) that the two of you were going to the movies, AND I WAS TOLD SPECIFICALLY THAT I WAS NOT ALOWWED TO GO!, so now im stuck on the south side with matt being my only ride home, so we go and get you. When we get to your house i went into the bathroom and grabbed a q-tip, now im sorry if that offended you, see the thing is, and all my friends know this, that my house is community property, everyone just goes into my cupboards and fridge, and i dont care, but if i have one pet peave its when my ears itch, so when i got there i grabbed a q-tip to cure that. Now this doesn't seem to be a problem to me, but apparently enough for you to mention it in an lj post, thanks its great to know that all the time we spent together you were a real good friend. All the time we spent together, undone by a q-tip, thats great. This seems really fucking stupid to me, if you had a problem with me going into the cabinet, you should have said something, and i had no choice on wether or not i was at your house, and i spent the entire time sleeping, so take the stick out of your ass, because you have way more serious problems then, Erik wasn't invited to my house and now im angry, get a fucking grip on reality.