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It's not that things are bad exactly. Life hasn't been in years. It's just that it's different and I admit firsthand that I don't (and probably never will) respond well to change. I like life to be stable, constant, concrete. I want to be able to call the same 4 people at four am that I've always called. But I don't call them anymore. It's not even like there is any real problem in my life. Nothing that is worth wasting your time about in livejournal anyways. I'm not afraid for the future and I don't dread on the past. It's just the now that I'm worried about it. And I don't know why. I'm sorry that you've read this far hoping for some melodramatic info about my life. It's not going to be in the entry today. You can throw your hands up, call me a waste of your time and move on to the next person's entry. Don't worry I'm more than okay with that. As I've always said, I'm not writing this for anyone but me. So. Back to the blandness of my life. I'm just bored I think. I've spent so many years revolving around chaos that I don't really quite know how to react when everything is okay. I need things to be wrong so that I can fix them. I think that's why I've created such hell in my life. Because I need to be doing something. Eh? Maybe I'm just crazy.
Sorry for wasting your time.
Sorry for wasting your time.