And Isn't It IRONIC?!?!
It both humors and annoys me to know that when I try my best to avoid drama, it has a nasty habit of backing me into a corner like a rabid animal and threatening to consume me for supper. Hmmm... How can this be? But I answer myself: That two-faced son-of-a-bitch Murphey! Murphey's 5th Law states almost verbatim the first line of this post. Or at least it does in my demented mind... Katy, Jimmy, Lindsey, and Jesse(just recently resolved) all hate me. In the blink of an eye, 4 people that I truly love and care about feel they are completely justified in loathing me and talking about me behind my back, but ignoring me and refusing a face-to-face with me. Katy is excluded from that - She is very angry with me (or perhaps anger isn't a strong enough noun in this case, perhaps: Pure Enmity?) but she has not refused to talk to me or anything of the sort. On the contrary, she has been mature about it and has been social to me and yet still made it obvious that there is a problem. I feel aweful for waiting so long to get on my knees and present her with the genuine apology she deserves. But I have felt completely lost with so many people showing me spite. It bothers me in a strongly empathetic way... I hurt badly b/c I have hurt people whom I love dearly. I may never be able to make it up to them, but I shall put 400% effort into pursuing every possible course of action that could, in anyway, help begin to restore the bridges that I have burned... This may have been a very pathetic post, but I know not what else to say. To all who I have hurt, I'm sorry and I love you. And though I don't deserve it, I hope you can find it in your heart to be patient with me and avoid rejecting my attempts to fix the situation. But perhaps I ask too much... *Sigh* Oh well, I'll shut the fuck up now...