seriously..take a step back and look at yourself before you start pointing fingers at people...
sometimes it's the new experiences that teaches you to treasure the lessons learned in the past...vice versa...same with people i guess...well at least sometimes...
it's some of the new people in your life that teaches you how much better and how much understanding the other people in your life were in the past...that what you had for more than twelve years trumps what you had in just six years maybe even less...at times, vice versa...and just when you thought that some of them understand you more than those people in your past..something or someone smacks you right in the face and makes you realize how dead wrong you are..good thing i learned to not expect anything from anyone anymore so now i'm not hurt as much as before...
another thing, is it so wrong of me to believe that the measurement of friendship is not based on the time you spent together or how many meet ups you set in a month? i mean, i have old friends i don't see of years..years i tell you! but we have the communication line open through those years and we know that even though we're apart the bond is still there and if one of us ever needed something the other would be there..
i'm just happy that i have really good friends...might be few...but at least i know they're real..they understand me..and they'd never abandon me..
OR..scream at me for not seeing them that often..seriously? if that's your idea of friendship then I don't want to be a part of it...you know why? because contrary to you i DO have a life..
i don't need clingy, dependent emotional people in life that can't breathe without seeing their friends..yes...even once in a month..you know why? because i HAVE friends like that, you know, ones i don't see often even once a month, but i know they're the ones i can trust and lean on...
so kudos to that friend of yours that said, "ako kasi when making friends i would NEVER EVER be emotional... i set limits... why, kasi ayaw kong umabot sa point na magkakatampuhan kame at least kung nilalagyan ko ng limitation ang feelings ko the hurt would be tolerable... "
okay this part is totally for you..oh yeah..you know who you are...if not...bato bato sa langit ang tamaan wag magalit...
do you ever wonder WHY you had friends who weren't true to you? mga plastik sabi mo nga..try looking at yourself for faults...i know i have a lot..like that thing you said about borrowing houses...i know it's wrong of me and it was too much...and some other ugly things i don't need to mention now...but the question is..do YOU know yours? are you AWARE you're clingy, dependent and too emotional for comfort? oh and by the way? "gusto lang kita makilala kaya gusto kita makita kahit isang araw lang, makabonding ka kahit isang araw lang kasi gusto kita makilala ng husto." doesn't really make me happy..makilala pa ko? adik ka? ilang taon na tayo magkakilala hindi mo pa rin ako kilala? eh may dalawang tao nga sa'ting magkakaibigan na kilalang kilala na ko wala pang isang taon kami nagkakilala to the point that words need not be said between us to understand each other tapos ikaw hindi mo pa rin ako kilala? what do you want from me woman? (i mean...little girl? you're not acting like a woman anyway...) you want my brain? take it..you want my time? you already had alot of it..you want my heart..you already have part of it...what else do you need? my soul? go ahead take it...take all of it if that's what you want...seriously..what else do you want from me?? bawal na ba magtira para sa sarili ko at sa ibang taong mahal ko? what else do you want to know about me? i am what you see..and what you see is what you get so I AM SORRY for not getting your excuse about the bonding thing...I AM SORRY we had to go through that and had all those hurtful words thrown around but I've had enough of your drama and your theatrics...hindi ako nag-iisa when i tell you madrama ka masyado at masyado ka dependent...now if the others have got no balls to tell you that...then let me play the bad guy...that's you dear...you're too clingy..too dependent...too emotional...too madrama...eh mas madrama ka pa nga sa'kin eh loka ka...oh and one quick thing..you also just loooove the spotlight now don't you? pag may dramahang nangyayare you end up hogging the stage and the audience..trying to prove that you're more kawawa than us...that's all dear...and honestly i love you for what you do...cook food..surprise us with mini-parties..listen to our qualms..offer your house for tambay and sleepovers..being a good and reliable friend...but this..this "I've never had real friends 'til now that's why i need to see you at least once a month" drama thing is already enough for me..so if you can't accept what i just said...so be it..
by the way, please stop playing the i-didn't-have-real-friends-'til-now card on me and don't tell me i don't understand...because I HAVE BEEN THERE..i know the feeling..and sometimes what you think is wrong..in the future something will make you think twice about that statement..'cause right now those people who i think weren't real..ARE the most real friends i could ever get...
that's it..i've said my piece and i am over and done with this topic..
it's some of the new people in your life that teaches you how much better and how much understanding the other people in your life were in the past...that what you had for more than twelve years trumps what you had in just six years maybe even less...at times, vice versa...and just when you thought that some of them understand you more than those people in your past..something or someone smacks you right in the face and makes you realize how dead wrong you are..good thing i learned to not expect anything from anyone anymore so now i'm not hurt as much as before...
another thing, is it so wrong of me to believe that the measurement of friendship is not based on the time you spent together or how many meet ups you set in a month? i mean, i have old friends i don't see of years..years i tell you! but we have the communication line open through those years and we know that even though we're apart the bond is still there and if one of us ever needed something the other would be there..
i'm just happy that i have really good friends...might be few...but at least i know they're real..they understand me..and they'd never abandon me..
OR..scream at me for not seeing them that often..seriously? if that's your idea of friendship then I don't want to be a part of it...you know why? because contrary to you i DO have a life..
i don't need clingy, dependent emotional people in life that can't breathe without seeing their friends..yes...even once in a month..you know why? because i HAVE friends like that, you know, ones i don't see often even once a month, but i know they're the ones i can trust and lean on...
so kudos to that friend of yours that said, "ako kasi when making friends i would NEVER EVER be emotional... i set limits... why, kasi ayaw kong umabot sa point na magkakatampuhan kame at least kung nilalagyan ko ng limitation ang feelings ko the hurt would be tolerable... "
okay this part is totally for you..oh yeah..you know who you are...if not...bato bato sa langit ang tamaan wag magalit...
do you ever wonder WHY you had friends who weren't true to you? mga plastik sabi mo nga..try looking at yourself for faults...i know i have a lot..like that thing you said about borrowing houses...i know it's wrong of me and it was too much...and some other ugly things i don't need to mention now...but the question is..do YOU know yours? are you AWARE you're clingy, dependent and too emotional for comfort? oh and by the way? "gusto lang kita makilala kaya gusto kita makita kahit isang araw lang, makabonding ka kahit isang araw lang kasi gusto kita makilala ng husto." doesn't really make me happy..makilala pa ko? adik ka? ilang taon na tayo magkakilala hindi mo pa rin ako kilala? eh may dalawang tao nga sa'ting magkakaibigan na kilalang kilala na ko wala pang isang taon kami nagkakilala to the point that words need not be said between us to understand each other tapos ikaw hindi mo pa rin ako kilala? what do you want from me woman? (i mean...little girl? you're not acting like a woman anyway...) you want my brain? take it..you want my time? you already had alot of it..you want my heart..you already have part of it...what else do you need? my soul? go ahead take it...take all of it if that's what you want...seriously..what else do you want from me?? bawal na ba magtira para sa sarili ko at sa ibang taong mahal ko? what else do you want to know about me? i am what you see..and what you see is what you get so I AM SORRY for not getting your excuse about the bonding thing...I AM SORRY we had to go through that and had all those hurtful words thrown around but I've had enough of your drama and your theatrics...hindi ako nag-iisa when i tell you madrama ka masyado at masyado ka dependent...now if the others have got no balls to tell you that...then let me play the bad guy...that's you dear...you're too clingy..too dependent...too emotional...too madrama...eh mas madrama ka pa nga sa'kin eh loka ka...oh and one quick thing..you also just loooove the spotlight now don't you? pag may dramahang nangyayare you end up hogging the stage and the audience..trying to prove that you're more kawawa than us...that's all dear...and honestly i love you for what you do...cook food..surprise us with mini-parties..listen to our qualms..offer your house for tambay and sleepovers..being a good and reliable friend...but this..this "I've never had real friends 'til now that's why i need to see you at least once a month" drama thing is already enough for me..so if you can't accept what i just said...so be it..
by the way, please stop playing the i-didn't-have-real-friends-'til-now card on me and don't tell me i don't understand...because I HAVE BEEN THERE..i know the feeling..and sometimes what you think is wrong..in the future something will make you think twice about that statement..'cause right now those people who i think weren't real..ARE the most real friends i could ever get...
that's it..i've said my piece and i am over and done with this topic..