it feels good to be so happy
it feels good to be a little blonder. it makes me feel a little more flirty. ready to move on and see whats out there.
fuck working at the gap. they called and said they didn't need me to come in today. and i have ten hours next week. my parents are the greatest though, they said they would help me out. i am still getting a job in btown though.
i look forward to spending a few evenings with that music major. finally. he was cute. and fun. that's all the matters.plus i haven't been on a real date since karl took me for sushi. boy was that a good dinner. i am going to have a beer and a few breadsticks with genaro one night at kilroys. and a little get together with steph and possibly the boys....we'll see. a little wine and italian food with miss cat. it will be nice to enjoy my time there......not be entirely trashed for once. possibly porch it up at the fijis. i like that porch.
job hunt during the day and enjoy the evenings. all three of them. you know you're jealous.
and i have decided i really want a Honda truck. they are amazing. but i suppose the accord will do. even though it is cursed. a garden hoe appeared out of nowhere on the highway today. it was really scary. that shit could have really damaged the car.
i know i say this alot, but i really love my friends. i am grateful for the ones who have stuck by me and put up with my strong personality. i can be hard to take on, but for those of you who did....thank you. without you i would be lost.
i was walking through a department store today and looked at all the beautiful dresses. i imagined myself in every glittering one. And i told my mom that i would be able to walk through that department and buy whichever one i wanted and go to dinner or a function and stun everyone around me. I want to be successful. Not because i am greedy, but because i know i can. One person in particular for some reason has made me see this ( i mean honestly, can you help what go through your mind?). I am not hateful. In fact, they still mean very much to me, but they have made me realize that I can be so much more. I know i am in college, but i have my head on tight and i am quite mature when it comes to most things. I don't want to jerk people around or be lazy or talk myself up or be a slacker or a drunk, nor do i want to be with someone who is those things. I want to be me........and that is a hell of a lot more than the above..