Maybe nobody wants to grow up yet, but we're all too afraid of being critisized that we won't admit it. I broke down and bawled yesterday at the thought of budgets and late bills and class. I think that maybe you're just not ready yet to handle all of the things that have been thrown at you. And I don't really want to tell you that's ok, because society's opinion seems to be 'shut up and do it anyway,' but I love you regardless. You're actually sleeping now, so it's not like I'm gonna wake you up to tell you all this. But that's a good sign. Some of this crap may not be fixable yet, but some of it is. We can clean the apartment, and that will make everyone feel better. We can buy groceries. They don't have to be uber-healthy to be better than fast food, and multiple meals in a day might do you good. I'll go to astronomy class with you, and see if I can help get you up. If you want me to ride to Evansville with you, I will. Hell, I'll even drive. I need to practise driving in cities, and nothing would hurt us in my car. And then once we get the apartment cleaned, we can start inviting people over. That way you don't have to expend a lot of effort but can still see people more. And... get this, we could unplug the internet for a day. Or, alternately, you can sit around being lathargic, playing video games and chatting on the internets for a day or two, because you deserve to spend time doing the things you enjoy. A few days of enjoying these things, without feeling guilty about them may perk you up. You don't have to change your habits, but take a break from worry and responcibility. Then pick it back up when you're ready, and not before. That is the best you can do. Also, sorry for being so rough on you lately, next time just tell me to back off.
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