dancing in the moonlight
(this is a lot to read)
This time of year I'm usually in a good mood. I'm a little down because everyone's leaving. I'm a little happy because a lot of new good things are beginning. I'm not really a LOT of anything. I'm changing. I suppose I'm always growing and changing. Perhaps this I'm finally growing up (never all the way) or I could just be under the same mindset under which every senior finds themselves. I care about different things. Perhaps certain things I used to care about never worked out and I lost hope. Certain things I did not care about surprised me and I want to see them to comlpetion. This summer has pushed me to my limit. I've had to depend on God more than I ever have in my life. I'm sure there will be much more to come in my future, now I can't imagine life without Him.
I'm glad I have one year left. One year left to grow up a little bit. One year of being comfortable. I am excited for the challenges, but at the same time I'm scared out of my mind. There are too many decisions; but I've heard that these decisions will only increase in quantity and quality as I get older. I keep thinking that time will solve these pieces of responsiblity I have yet to push one way or the other, however time does not solve anything. I want to spend more time with the amazing friends God has put in my life but I have not made an effort to see often. I want to be passionate for God, and help everyone at my, as it seems, very young youth group to also be passionate for Him.
...well I have to go to the daycare now...
This time of year I'm usually in a good mood. I'm a little down because everyone's leaving. I'm a little happy because a lot of new good things are beginning. I'm not really a LOT of anything. I'm changing. I suppose I'm always growing and changing. Perhaps this I'm finally growing up (never all the way) or I could just be under the same mindset under which every senior finds themselves. I care about different things. Perhaps certain things I used to care about never worked out and I lost hope. Certain things I did not care about surprised me and I want to see them to comlpetion. This summer has pushed me to my limit. I've had to depend on God more than I ever have in my life. I'm sure there will be much more to come in my future, now I can't imagine life without Him.
I'm glad I have one year left. One year left to grow up a little bit. One year of being comfortable. I am excited for the challenges, but at the same time I'm scared out of my mind. There are too many decisions; but I've heard that these decisions will only increase in quantity and quality as I get older. I keep thinking that time will solve these pieces of responsiblity I have yet to push one way or the other, however time does not solve anything. I want to spend more time with the amazing friends God has put in my life but I have not made an effort to see often. I want to be passionate for God, and help everyone at my, as it seems, very young youth group to also be passionate for Him.
...well I have to go to the daycare now...