"really torn up about it"
it sucks. it hurts to be broken. i have good friends and family i know. but i was happy in the relationship (until recently of course). then again, no one can make you happy. you have to make yourself happy before you can let someone else in. i just wish he could have said stuff like that to me and not been so deceiving. so i am going to make myself happy. let me reword that: im going to do things that make me happy when i want to do them and im going to be myself (like ive been trying to do) and if you cant deal with that then i guess youre not worth it. i think what i miss more than him is having someone to call on breaks and stuff or just to say hi. someone to miss and care about and love and be intimate with is not always a bad thing. maybe ill get that later but for now i have to help myself.
besides, i wasnt helping by sticking around. i mean seriously "a break"? that would make things so much more difficult for both of us. you have to help yourself before someone else can help you. that sucks and hurts too but its the truth. i like the truth. i like to hear it and i like to speak it.
it smells like dog pee in this house. its real trife.
besides, i wasnt helping by sticking around. i mean seriously "a break"? that would make things so much more difficult for both of us. you have to help yourself before someone else can help you. that sucks and hurts too but its the truth. i like the truth. i like to hear it and i like to speak it.
it smells like dog pee in this house. its real trife.