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In eight days I'll be twenty years old.
All I want for my birthday is for Zac to be home and spend the weekend with me. I don't have to do anything special, I just want reassurance that he still cares, mainly because sometimes I can't tell if he does. I don't know if he does it to everyone, but he never responds to any of my texts or other messages now, and I really have to wonder how difficult it is to just send a text back saying he loves me too, or something.
I had a panic attack last night because I woke up with the feeling that he hates me and really doesn't want to be with me anymore. I thought I was dying, that's how horrible it felt. I don't think he understands what I'm feeling at all, and it's so frustrating because all I want from him is his love and affection. I feel like I'm jumping through hoops for someone I thought I already won over.
I love Zac to death. And I hope he still loves me that much.
All I want for my birthday is for Zac to be home and spend the weekend with me. I don't have to do anything special, I just want reassurance that he still cares, mainly because sometimes I can't tell if he does. I don't know if he does it to everyone, but he never responds to any of my texts or other messages now, and I really have to wonder how difficult it is to just send a text back saying he loves me too, or something.
I had a panic attack last night because I woke up with the feeling that he hates me and really doesn't want to be with me anymore. I thought I was dying, that's how horrible it felt. I don't think he understands what I'm feeling at all, and it's so frustrating because all I want from him is his love and affection. I feel like I'm jumping through hoops for someone I thought I already won over.
I love Zac to death. And I hope he still loves me that much.