I missed you journal
Duplicitous, melodramatic and vacuous. I think those three words pretty much cover it all.
Now that I've got that off of my chest, my days have been pretty damn good. I've noticed that my confidence has gone up a lot over the past year. I've been playing "the dating game" apparently. What a joke that is. I no longer work every hour of the day. Free time is the right time, um... next to the night time. Well free night time is the best time. I've also noticed that I don't get sad. I get upset at times, but not sad. What's sadness all about anyways? Why did I waste my time with that crap? I want to go out a lot. I just want to have fun. I feel like I missed all that shit pitying myself through school. Fuck man, I feel good. I just had the perfect opportunity to get depressed about something lame and I don't give a damn about it. What's all the drama for? Why should I be so negative?
Oh man, I think I might be ready to possibly handle a girlfriend. I've been on some dates. Some went well, some bad. Who cares. The truth is, I was too overemotional about relationships. I'm still picky, but who isn't? I shouldn't get too paranoid about how a girl is feeling. The way I look at it is; as long as I'm going into it all with a good heart, I shouldn't get down about somebody else's insecurities. I can't tell myself "well the reason is because when she was 10 her dad didn't buy her that bike she wanted and now she doesn't trust guys". The reason is not what I should focus on, it's the action that counts. Besides, I'm a pretty nice guy, I won't do anything to deserve shit.
Anyways, I don't think people read this anymore. Which is cool. If you are reading this, feel free to comment to me about anything I may have missed. Odds are I haven't talked to you in a while.
Now that I've got that off of my chest, my days have been pretty damn good. I've noticed that my confidence has gone up a lot over the past year. I've been playing "the dating game" apparently. What a joke that is. I no longer work every hour of the day. Free time is the right time, um... next to the night time. Well free night time is the best time. I've also noticed that I don't get sad. I get upset at times, but not sad. What's sadness all about anyways? Why did I waste my time with that crap? I want to go out a lot. I just want to have fun. I feel like I missed all that shit pitying myself through school. Fuck man, I feel good. I just had the perfect opportunity to get depressed about something lame and I don't give a damn about it. What's all the drama for? Why should I be so negative?
Oh man, I think I might be ready to possibly handle a girlfriend. I've been on some dates. Some went well, some bad. Who cares. The truth is, I was too overemotional about relationships. I'm still picky, but who isn't? I shouldn't get too paranoid about how a girl is feeling. The way I look at it is; as long as I'm going into it all with a good heart, I shouldn't get down about somebody else's insecurities. I can't tell myself "well the reason is because when she was 10 her dad didn't buy her that bike she wanted and now she doesn't trust guys". The reason is not what I should focus on, it's the action that counts. Besides, I'm a pretty nice guy, I won't do anything to deserve shit.
Anyways, I don't think people read this anymore. Which is cool. If you are reading this, feel free to comment to me about anything I may have missed. Odds are I haven't talked to you in a while.