God's kicking my butt.
In the past few weeks God has been trying to get my attention. All these things keep happening and I've just been igorning them.
But he has my attention now. After hours or crying and not knowing why, blessings happening at the supermarket, words of wisdom from the unlikiest of people, and I was doubting going to a place I probably shouldn't go to and then loosing my house keys?
Okay God I get it!
He has been stirring up old feelings, past experiences and such. I'm thinking because they totally haven't been forgiven or been given to God to deal with for me.
A lady I spoke with at a small group meeting at my pastors house chalenged me the other night, saying:
"Do you trust God enough with the big things? Is God enough for you? Or do you need more?"
And the answer came to me quickly. God hasn't been enough. I've needed friends, relationships and other material things.
And I know God wants ALL of my affection. Not some of it.
And it seems so hard. Because this world is so hurtful and hateful. And we are constantly in a battle with the enemy and with ourselves and other people. It seems so hard to make God everything, and to make him my highest affection.
And now I think back to the day that I accepted Christ. Just 4 years ago. When I accepted him I don't know if I accepted all of him. I think I just learned to deal with the way God was and that be it.
So God has been showing me, that he is the way he is because he loves us.
And Jesus DEFEATED the enemy at the cross, so he should have no control in our lives.
And now all we have is freedom. A freedom in which we should SOAR in.
Prayers is much needed.
I need to get my head straight.
But he has my attention now. After hours or crying and not knowing why, blessings happening at the supermarket, words of wisdom from the unlikiest of people, and I was doubting going to a place I probably shouldn't go to and then loosing my house keys?
Okay God I get it!
He has been stirring up old feelings, past experiences and such. I'm thinking because they totally haven't been forgiven or been given to God to deal with for me.
A lady I spoke with at a small group meeting at my pastors house chalenged me the other night, saying:
"Do you trust God enough with the big things? Is God enough for you? Or do you need more?"
And the answer came to me quickly. God hasn't been enough. I've needed friends, relationships and other material things.
And I know God wants ALL of my affection. Not some of it.
And it seems so hard. Because this world is so hurtful and hateful. And we are constantly in a battle with the enemy and with ourselves and other people. It seems so hard to make God everything, and to make him my highest affection.
And now I think back to the day that I accepted Christ. Just 4 years ago. When I accepted him I don't know if I accepted all of him. I think I just learned to deal with the way God was and that be it.
So God has been showing me, that he is the way he is because he loves us.
And Jesus DEFEATED the enemy at the cross, so he should have no control in our lives.
And now all we have is freedom. A freedom in which we should SOAR in.
Prayers is much needed.
I need to get my head straight.