*sigh*
I saw m ex-fiance last night. I gave him some of the money I owed him.
We ended up going for gelato and talking. In about an hour that we spent together he managed to talk as fast as he could to make sure he updated me on everything new in his life.
And in that hour I managed to hold back tears and try not to stare deep into his eyes while I listened.
I mostly was staring because I wanted to see if he still had love in them for me.
At first I wasn't sure. And then I thought 'no'. But near the very end of the night, I saw it, I saw that he still loved me.
I know that we can't be together.
But its nice to know he hasn't just forgotten me and moved on so quickly.
I've been thinking about him so much lately, and also whats Gods hand doing in all of this.
Please pray. I miss him still so much.
Will it ever go away?
Will I find someone else that will make me feel like he made me feel?
Would God give him back to me in the future when he thinks we might be ready?
Oh, I wish he would give me a clue.
We ended up going for gelato and talking. In about an hour that we spent together he managed to talk as fast as he could to make sure he updated me on everything new in his life.
And in that hour I managed to hold back tears and try not to stare deep into his eyes while I listened.
I mostly was staring because I wanted to see if he still had love in them for me.
At first I wasn't sure. And then I thought 'no'. But near the very end of the night, I saw it, I saw that he still loved me.
I know that we can't be together.
But its nice to know he hasn't just forgotten me and moved on so quickly.
I've been thinking about him so much lately, and also whats Gods hand doing in all of this.
Please pray. I miss him still so much.
Will it ever go away?
Will I find someone else that will make me feel like he made me feel?
Would God give him back to me in the future when he thinks we might be ready?
Oh, I wish he would give me a clue.