Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star
I know it's been forever since I've written, but nothing has really compelled me to write until now that is. I got in a big fight with my mom today and it just has ruined everything. Tomorrow is Tiffany's Birthday, and this weekend is the 4th of July (My favorite holiday), so needless to say I was really happing and really looking forward to the weekend. I'm going to watch the Clawson fireworks with Nick and Tiffany! I decided to buy some fireworks today, that's what started it. Of course I did something wrong again. I guess setting off a few fireworks at my grandparents house is too much, too much what I don't know? It's no work for my grandparents, I would clean it all up, but anyway. I said something I shouldn't have. I mentioned maybe BBQing at there house, well I wasn't really thinking when I said that cuz that would have really been a lot of work, but like I said, I was just thinking about it. I'm really mad at myself because it really would have been a bad idea. With my grandpa sick and all my grandma really doesn't need anything else to worry about or have to do around the house. I guess I was really stupid for saying that. I'm a very traditional person and I just love the thought of BBQ, fireworks, family, beer, and bottle rockets in the backyard, that's what the 4th is supposed to be. Or should I say...that's what it was. The whole family used to get together for the 4th at my grandparents house every single year but, "that's when we were kids" As my mom says. Anyway back to my story, so my mom started yelling at me for the fireworks and eating there I guess. She told me eat here and I said fine, but she had to repeat it another 5 times. That's when I screamed at her. I really do hate my mother, my life would be so much calmer without her. Now she's going to go and tell her sister (my Aunt) and her brother (my Uncle) how immature and stupid I am. One day my mom told me that Uncle Bill said, "I'll grow up one of these days." I didn't know I wasn't grown up? I thought I tried so hard to do everything right and be mature, but I guess I'm not. But as I've been thiking about this for some time now, I think i know why.
My childhood wasn't like any normal kids. My parents are definately unique. All the things that you're like required to do as a child, I never did because of my parents. I went to a few carnivals here and there, but mom hates rides and because of dad's heart condition he can't ride, but I don't think he much cares for them either. Needless to say I didn't go to Cedar Point or anything until the 7th grade with school. Vacations were the ultimate source of family fights. Mom preferred staying in a posh hotel walking around seeing sights, shopping, and mocking how exhausted I was. We went up to a cabin when I was really little. Now my mom wouldn't be caught dead in a cabin. That's more my idea of a vacation, staying in a cabin, swiming, fishing, boating...that stuff. We never flew on a plane, we never went to Florida or anywhere nice. We always went to dumb places that were as pointless to visit as Detroit. Toronto, Macanaw, Ohio....who the fuck goes to Ohio on a vacation? I feel like I honestly didn't have much of a childhood. Because I went to private school I didn't really have any friends. I was by myself alot when I was young. I really do dispise my parents for depriving me of my childhood. I can never get that back.
I grew up really fast, I think. Partying with friends, I was always the one taking care of everyone else, and keeping the house clean...etc. My mom doesn't think I will be able to make it on my own. I guess only time will tell, but I would rather be homeless than live here any longer than I have to.
Today my mom said something I will never forget. I was doing some homeowrk while watching Austin Powers on TV. The homework was simple and doesn't require much concentration. Besides I'm pulling an A....I think I know what I'm doing. She tells me I should turn the TV off and do my homeowrk so that I can give it, "my full concentration" I just said ok, and kept on. Then she said, "you'll never make it into beaumont, they only take the best!" That comment will change everything from here on out. I'll never help her ever again. Thank you for crushing my dreams mom, you're so wonderful. When you're old and dying, don't call me cuz I won't be there. I'll be too busy to bother with you, you evil bitch. What sane mother says that to her daughter? I don't know, well I mean, other than my mother I guess.
Other things too. Yesterday I was talking to Tiffany and she said she was laying out in the sun with her mom. something my mom would never do and has never done. Tiffany's mom takes her camping, another thing that's really fun. But my family would never. Well, my dad probably would, but mom would never let it slide. She's too prissy for that! I've been camping once, with a friend from school, and that's it. She can't leave the house past 3pm, "Heaven's No!" The traffic and it's too close to dinner time. I wish mommy dearest would have some fun once in awhile.
Nick knows, he knows I'm not stupid like she says I am. He doesn't think I'm immature either. I think Nick's the only one I got really. Other than Tiff that is. He loves me and he never says anything mean to me like my mom. Infact he think's my mom's a bitch too. I just hate the fact that my mom thinks everything I do and say is wrong, it just isn't fair.
Well, I guess that's all for now, but Mom remember this from here on out. I hate you, I will always hate you.
My childhood wasn't like any normal kids. My parents are definately unique. All the things that you're like required to do as a child, I never did because of my parents. I went to a few carnivals here and there, but mom hates rides and because of dad's heart condition he can't ride, but I don't think he much cares for them either. Needless to say I didn't go to Cedar Point or anything until the 7th grade with school. Vacations were the ultimate source of family fights. Mom preferred staying in a posh hotel walking around seeing sights, shopping, and mocking how exhausted I was. We went up to a cabin when I was really little. Now my mom wouldn't be caught dead in a cabin. That's more my idea of a vacation, staying in a cabin, swiming, fishing, boating...that stuff. We never flew on a plane, we never went to Florida or anywhere nice. We always went to dumb places that were as pointless to visit as Detroit. Toronto, Macanaw, Ohio....who the fuck goes to Ohio on a vacation? I feel like I honestly didn't have much of a childhood. Because I went to private school I didn't really have any friends. I was by myself alot when I was young. I really do dispise my parents for depriving me of my childhood. I can never get that back.
I grew up really fast, I think. Partying with friends, I was always the one taking care of everyone else, and keeping the house clean...etc. My mom doesn't think I will be able to make it on my own. I guess only time will tell, but I would rather be homeless than live here any longer than I have to.
Today my mom said something I will never forget. I was doing some homeowrk while watching Austin Powers on TV. The homework was simple and doesn't require much concentration. Besides I'm pulling an A....I think I know what I'm doing. She tells me I should turn the TV off and do my homeowrk so that I can give it, "my full concentration" I just said ok, and kept on. Then she said, "you'll never make it into beaumont, they only take the best!" That comment will change everything from here on out. I'll never help her ever again. Thank you for crushing my dreams mom, you're so wonderful. When you're old and dying, don't call me cuz I won't be there. I'll be too busy to bother with you, you evil bitch. What sane mother says that to her daughter? I don't know, well I mean, other than my mother I guess.
Other things too. Yesterday I was talking to Tiffany and she said she was laying out in the sun with her mom. something my mom would never do and has never done. Tiffany's mom takes her camping, another thing that's really fun. But my family would never. Well, my dad probably would, but mom would never let it slide. She's too prissy for that! I've been camping once, with a friend from school, and that's it. She can't leave the house past 3pm, "Heaven's No!" The traffic and it's too close to dinner time. I wish mommy dearest would have some fun once in awhile.
Nick knows, he knows I'm not stupid like she says I am. He doesn't think I'm immature either. I think Nick's the only one I got really. Other than Tiff that is. He loves me and he never says anything mean to me like my mom. Infact he think's my mom's a bitch too. I just hate the fact that my mom thinks everything I do and say is wrong, it just isn't fair.
Well, I guess that's all for now, but Mom remember this from here on out. I hate you, I will always hate you.