The good, the bad, and the ugly!
Wow, it really has been a long time since I've written. But alot has been goiog on lately and I really wanted to get it all straightened out before I really said anything about it. And the the obsticle of finding the time also became a factor in writing. But now, I'm up at MSU on a mini vacation and Tiff is still asleep (big surprise!!!) LoL! Anwyway now I have some free time to do a little catching up!
First of all, I guess I'll start with the "good." The good is, is that I've finally decided what I'm going to do with myself and what I'm what I'm going to do with school! My first day in my Nutrition we all went around the room and introduced ourselves and our potential majors. Well one girl said that she was going into "Medical Assistant Associate Degree" so I asked her about it, how much science it required and what not. She said that it didn't require much science at all. So I looked into it online and noticed that the only science was the Chemistry that I took would satisfy the reqirement! After that I went to my counclor and talked to him, made sure that I had all the requirements and electives done, which I did. That means that all I need are the core classes, which should take me about a year or less to get through! That means I should be able to graduate and get a real jog in like a year, maybe a year and a half? So, I'm really excited now. I'm ready to go FULL SPEED AHEAD! I'm already taking 2 classes over the summer and I'm really going to give it my all, I'm really excited now and school is no longer a sore spot for me. Yes, I know it's only and Associates Degree and it pretty much goes against everything I wanted, but it's also a start. Maybe I'll end up back in school to get more education? So anyway that is cool!
I guess the bad really isn't all that "bad." But I've been going to visit my grandpa pretty much every single night. And it seems like the more I do it, the more he gets used to it. When I'm not there he asks for me. He tells everyone that I cover him the best. I really enjoy the fact that he likes me there so much. He get's so excited when I walk in the door. And I'm always joking around with him and talking to him, trying to stimulate him in any way. Yesterday I went to eat lunch with them before I came up here. After he ate my grandma tried to get him to eat a cookie for desert, but he just wouldn't eat it. So I asked him, "do you want a fig neuton?" he said, "no dear, you have one!" I said, "Well, I'll have one if you'll have one." He said, "Ok then, I'll have one!" Isn't that funny? My mom said, "He'll do anything for you!" Wow, I've never felt so powerful, so helpful, in my life! And I mean powerful in a good way. 24/7 I am thinking about my grandpa and thinking of something I could by for him or anything. He's been doing pretty good lately, having more good days than bad. He has fidgity days but that comes with the territory. He's happy to see me and because of that, I'll do anything and everything I can to make sure I visit him.
I feel as though I'm pulling myself very thin sometimes. Being a 20 year old, friend, a girlfriend, a lover, a daughter, a granddaughter, an employee, and a student. Some days I feel like I can't do it all. There are so many parts for me to play each day, and it just get so tired sometimes, and sometimes I feel like I can't do it all, and I can't do it all right either! Most of my friends are really understanding about my grandfather and how much he means to me right now. I feel as though I totally took him forgranted and that's one lesson I'll never forget. But as I visit him each day sometimes my friends get put on the back burner, and for that (if you're reading this) I'm sorry! But thank you so much for understand! Tiffany for leaving the mall with me, going back buying me a shirt and going back home becuse grandpa was asking for me! Brandon, Nick, Eric, Phil...god everyone has been so great and Thank you all SO MUCH! But at the same time I feel like there are some people who don't care. Some people who say they are "friends" but never like to ask about my grandpa-the most important person in the world to me!! And because of that I have also learned who my true friends really are!
And well, that is that! It's about time for me to get in the shower and start this beautiful day!!!
First of all, I guess I'll start with the "good." The good is, is that I've finally decided what I'm going to do with myself and what I'm what I'm going to do with school! My first day in my Nutrition we all went around the room and introduced ourselves and our potential majors. Well one girl said that she was going into "Medical Assistant Associate Degree" so I asked her about it, how much science it required and what not. She said that it didn't require much science at all. So I looked into it online and noticed that the only science was the Chemistry that I took would satisfy the reqirement! After that I went to my counclor and talked to him, made sure that I had all the requirements and electives done, which I did. That means that all I need are the core classes, which should take me about a year or less to get through! That means I should be able to graduate and get a real jog in like a year, maybe a year and a half? So, I'm really excited now. I'm ready to go FULL SPEED AHEAD! I'm already taking 2 classes over the summer and I'm really going to give it my all, I'm really excited now and school is no longer a sore spot for me. Yes, I know it's only and Associates Degree and it pretty much goes against everything I wanted, but it's also a start. Maybe I'll end up back in school to get more education? So anyway that is cool!
I guess the bad really isn't all that "bad." But I've been going to visit my grandpa pretty much every single night. And it seems like the more I do it, the more he gets used to it. When I'm not there he asks for me. He tells everyone that I cover him the best. I really enjoy the fact that he likes me there so much. He get's so excited when I walk in the door. And I'm always joking around with him and talking to him, trying to stimulate him in any way. Yesterday I went to eat lunch with them before I came up here. After he ate my grandma tried to get him to eat a cookie for desert, but he just wouldn't eat it. So I asked him, "do you want a fig neuton?" he said, "no dear, you have one!" I said, "Well, I'll have one if you'll have one." He said, "Ok then, I'll have one!" Isn't that funny? My mom said, "He'll do anything for you!" Wow, I've never felt so powerful, so helpful, in my life! And I mean powerful in a good way. 24/7 I am thinking about my grandpa and thinking of something I could by for him or anything. He's been doing pretty good lately, having more good days than bad. He has fidgity days but that comes with the territory. He's happy to see me and because of that, I'll do anything and everything I can to make sure I visit him.
I feel as though I'm pulling myself very thin sometimes. Being a 20 year old, friend, a girlfriend, a lover, a daughter, a granddaughter, an employee, and a student. Some days I feel like I can't do it all. There are so many parts for me to play each day, and it just get so tired sometimes, and sometimes I feel like I can't do it all, and I can't do it all right either! Most of my friends are really understanding about my grandfather and how much he means to me right now. I feel as though I totally took him forgranted and that's one lesson I'll never forget. But as I visit him each day sometimes my friends get put on the back burner, and for that (if you're reading this) I'm sorry! But thank you so much for understand! Tiffany for leaving the mall with me, going back buying me a shirt and going back home becuse grandpa was asking for me! Brandon, Nick, Eric, Phil...god everyone has been so great and Thank you all SO MUCH! But at the same time I feel like there are some people who don't care. Some people who say they are "friends" but never like to ask about my grandpa-the most important person in the world to me!! And because of that I have also learned who my true friends really are!
And well, that is that! It's about time for me to get in the shower and start this beautiful day!!!