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Wow.. never realised just how long it's been since I last wrote in this thing.. I guess I just got a little bored of writing the same thing over and over.. Everything pretty much just stays the same.. all that changes are the days, weeks and months.. I'm in a routine life.. I always know what's going to be happening.. there's no sense of surprise.. just the same old thing..
I've been thinking a lot over the last few weeks about where I want to be in life.. some things are popping up more so now than ever before.. things that I thought had gone away.. things that I thought I was past.. things that just keep dragging me back in.. I won't stop it.. Never.. I'll keep getting dragged back in.. until the day I die.. there's something connecting me.. something I can't avoid..
I really don't know what I want.. I do.. but I don't.. I can't pick between any two different things.. It's too hard..
So yes.. once again.. same things happening.. different day.. different week.. different month.. different year..
I wonder if that's ever going to change..
I've been thinking a lot over the last few weeks about where I want to be in life.. some things are popping up more so now than ever before.. things that I thought had gone away.. things that I thought I was past.. things that just keep dragging me back in.. I won't stop it.. Never.. I'll keep getting dragged back in.. until the day I die.. there's something connecting me.. something I can't avoid..
I really don't know what I want.. I do.. but I don't.. I can't pick between any two different things.. It's too hard..
So yes.. once again.. same things happening.. different day.. different week.. different month.. different year..
I wonder if that's ever going to change..