New Years...the year from hell comes to an end....finally.!
So hello all, it's offically 2007, and the year from hell has finnaly ended. if this was some bad sitcom or tv show, this would be where i would do clips of highlights for the year in review, but since i can't let you see these highlights i came up with a top ten list of moments.
alrighty so at #10: Leaving my friends to get home on thier own after last years new years bash. They decided that it would be smart to get into it with each other, and then i got dragged into the middle of it. It ended up with alot of people yelling and two of us moving out and breaking up the group. trust me, not happy time there.
In at #9: i got interested in this girl, she was interested in this guy, but couldn't have him. i got really close to her,nothing ever happened, but it broke my heart to see her suffereing becasue of this guy. he kept sleeping with other woman, and woing this girl. he was a player, and i really hate players. in the end, i danced with her once to the most appropriate song...Beautiful by James Blunt. if you know the chorus to this song, then the point is quite blunt.
next, coming in at #8: i had this girlfriend. kinda left her on really bad terms. well not that bad, i tried to make her understand, let her know i was her friend stil. however she wouldn't have it. So this past june, i believe, i was at my mom's and accidentally called her. That started something i didn't see coming. after i moved back to toronto, i got these emails, and messenger messages saying how she was still awaiting my return, eeeee youch(yank at the proverbial collar). so i had to break her heart again. The worst part, she was at this years party at the groundhog. so i kept a very low profile. fate seems to be trying to keep her around for some reason. gah, fate must die! (stabs with pitch fork)
okay, so 8 was pretty long, but here is #7: So a few months after i moved in with my co-workers we took a trip to Ottawa, and never came back. it was okay, expcept as we stayed longer there, some of the team began to get these symptoms. and the rebellious natures took over. maybe it was becasue we were not doing well, or maybe it was because we all stayed in one hotel room barely big enough, or maybe, Ottawa does something to you. i really don't know. in the end, i saw two members sent home for these actions, and i became the next victim. but by that time, i was already entrenched in loyalty for the business, and my leader. Here's to those who fell in the line of unneccesary duty.
so here we are, #6: So over the course of the year, i have met and saw alot of people turn away from me. whether it be my hands, or another s, it has happened. i am sorry to all those whom i have caused this to happen, and someday, hope to meet you again, and make amends. To those that i met for a short time in the business, then got out, I am glad you saw through the bull and saved yourselves. i miss all of you, and hope all is well. For those still in the business, you are probably doing well, and good for you. just make sure the ends justufy the means.
#5: While in toronto, i gained a cat, My very first cat i could call completely mine. Vis was my kitten, and i trained her to be a shoulder cat. ahe would sleep on my chest and purr seemingly all night. during the time in ottawa, Vis and a cat i was keeping care of for my friend, both drank some poison, and died. i came home to them lifeless, and my roomates putting them in bags. I wouldn't aloow them to be thrown out. i buried them in the back yard. i loved that cat, both of them. So i take a shot of Jack Daniels, and salute,"here's to you, kittens anyone could love, and loved everyone."
i hate to admit this, but here is #4: I met this girl in ottawa, and had a long wait for her to come around. she would tell me to be patient, but then go tongue other guys. maybe i hate players because of her thinking about it now. anyhow, eventually we got together. We had alot of fun, and went drinking alot. sometimes we ended up so drunk, we were drunk when we woke up. eventually a guy came into the business and it all changed. we fought more and more. She was going away on all the roadtrips with him because he was the only one with a driver's licence. So at somepoint, they hooked up. And during a 4 week trip, she broke it off over the phone, then confessed to cheating on me. actually they both did. and it devestated me. but the worst part was that everyone was supportive of her, and no arms were extended to me. I dealt with it all alone. it was one of the hardest times i have ever experienced. in alot of ways, i still suffer.
Top 3 time...
#3: After i moved to Ottawa, i stayed in that hotel, and during that time we lost the house. We lost everything. it was like my entire past had been swept away from right under my feet. I had alot of stuff that i deemed super precious, and lost it all. my computer with all my files, and poems/storys, my sword collection, my first bed, alot of things. i miss so much of that stuff. i know i used to have something, and now it is gone. i guess the materials are insignificant, but the memories attached are what are precious. that is when my problems in ottawa really began.
#2: so i finnaly hit rock bottom one night. i had been living at my aunt's and uncles'place with my girlfriend, and my aunt went crazy and threw us out on the street. she claimed we didn't wash our hands enough. she obviously was a germaphobe. anyway i slept the night in a bus shelter. at least i had my coat and sweaters to use for warth, but i will never forget hitting the bottom. i swear i will never allow that to happen again. i understand the hopelessness of living on the street. alot of people say,"get a job, bum" But the peole they are talking to have no hope left, and need that helping hand, or have failed to many times and fallen to much to want to fall anymore. if you already are on the bottom, why climb away from the place you are most safe from falling. but i battled through this, and have been climbing since.
and the epic #1: Sunrize. Sunrize was the worst thing about my year. i ended up losing everything i owned because if it, i lost friends, lost myself in it's infernal influence. I even ended up on the street during my time there. I don't know how they wrapped such a head-strong SOB like me into it's magic, but it worked, and i had to start my life again from scratch. i turned into a jaded, hopeless individual who manipulated other's for money , and power. can't ever forgive myself for this.
so yeah. #1 influenced my year alot. as you can probaly tell. But that was 2006, this is 2007 and the year is over. since i came back to toronto, i have acquired a position at coast mountain sports as a manager in training, moved my best friend and i up to the 33rd floor penthouse, and gotten involved with some good people to hang with. my life may have been hell the last year, but i have come along way in a short time, and i know this year will hold alot of good things. The time of the Raven has come, fate needs to up it's game if it plans to haul me down. cause i ain't going down without a fight.
alrighty so at #10: Leaving my friends to get home on thier own after last years new years bash. They decided that it would be smart to get into it with each other, and then i got dragged into the middle of it. It ended up with alot of people yelling and two of us moving out and breaking up the group. trust me, not happy time there.
In at #9: i got interested in this girl, she was interested in this guy, but couldn't have him. i got really close to her,nothing ever happened, but it broke my heart to see her suffereing becasue of this guy. he kept sleeping with other woman, and woing this girl. he was a player, and i really hate players. in the end, i danced with her once to the most appropriate song...Beautiful by James Blunt. if you know the chorus to this song, then the point is quite blunt.
next, coming in at #8: i had this girlfriend. kinda left her on really bad terms. well not that bad, i tried to make her understand, let her know i was her friend stil. however she wouldn't have it. So this past june, i believe, i was at my mom's and accidentally called her. That started something i didn't see coming. after i moved back to toronto, i got these emails, and messenger messages saying how she was still awaiting my return, eeeee youch(yank at the proverbial collar). so i had to break her heart again. The worst part, she was at this years party at the groundhog. so i kept a very low profile. fate seems to be trying to keep her around for some reason. gah, fate must die! (stabs with pitch fork)
okay, so 8 was pretty long, but here is #7: So a few months after i moved in with my co-workers we took a trip to Ottawa, and never came back. it was okay, expcept as we stayed longer there, some of the team began to get these symptoms. and the rebellious natures took over. maybe it was becasue we were not doing well, or maybe it was because we all stayed in one hotel room barely big enough, or maybe, Ottawa does something to you. i really don't know. in the end, i saw two members sent home for these actions, and i became the next victim. but by that time, i was already entrenched in loyalty for the business, and my leader. Here's to those who fell in the line of unneccesary duty.
so here we are, #6: So over the course of the year, i have met and saw alot of people turn away from me. whether it be my hands, or another s, it has happened. i am sorry to all those whom i have caused this to happen, and someday, hope to meet you again, and make amends. To those that i met for a short time in the business, then got out, I am glad you saw through the bull and saved yourselves. i miss all of you, and hope all is well. For those still in the business, you are probably doing well, and good for you. just make sure the ends justufy the means.
#5: While in toronto, i gained a cat, My very first cat i could call completely mine. Vis was my kitten, and i trained her to be a shoulder cat. ahe would sleep on my chest and purr seemingly all night. during the time in ottawa, Vis and a cat i was keeping care of for my friend, both drank some poison, and died. i came home to them lifeless, and my roomates putting them in bags. I wouldn't aloow them to be thrown out. i buried them in the back yard. i loved that cat, both of them. So i take a shot of Jack Daniels, and salute,"here's to you, kittens anyone could love, and loved everyone."
i hate to admit this, but here is #4: I met this girl in ottawa, and had a long wait for her to come around. she would tell me to be patient, but then go tongue other guys. maybe i hate players because of her thinking about it now. anyhow, eventually we got together. We had alot of fun, and went drinking alot. sometimes we ended up so drunk, we were drunk when we woke up. eventually a guy came into the business and it all changed. we fought more and more. She was going away on all the roadtrips with him because he was the only one with a driver's licence. So at somepoint, they hooked up. And during a 4 week trip, she broke it off over the phone, then confessed to cheating on me. actually they both did. and it devestated me. but the worst part was that everyone was supportive of her, and no arms were extended to me. I dealt with it all alone. it was one of the hardest times i have ever experienced. in alot of ways, i still suffer.
Top 3 time...
#3: After i moved to Ottawa, i stayed in that hotel, and during that time we lost the house. We lost everything. it was like my entire past had been swept away from right under my feet. I had alot of stuff that i deemed super precious, and lost it all. my computer with all my files, and poems/storys, my sword collection, my first bed, alot of things. i miss so much of that stuff. i know i used to have something, and now it is gone. i guess the materials are insignificant, but the memories attached are what are precious. that is when my problems in ottawa really began.
#2: so i finnaly hit rock bottom one night. i had been living at my aunt's and uncles'place with my girlfriend, and my aunt went crazy and threw us out on the street. she claimed we didn't wash our hands enough. she obviously was a germaphobe. anyway i slept the night in a bus shelter. at least i had my coat and sweaters to use for warth, but i will never forget hitting the bottom. i swear i will never allow that to happen again. i understand the hopelessness of living on the street. alot of people say,"get a job, bum" But the peole they are talking to have no hope left, and need that helping hand, or have failed to many times and fallen to much to want to fall anymore. if you already are on the bottom, why climb away from the place you are most safe from falling. but i battled through this, and have been climbing since.
and the epic #1: Sunrize. Sunrize was the worst thing about my year. i ended up losing everything i owned because if it, i lost friends, lost myself in it's infernal influence. I even ended up on the street during my time there. I don't know how they wrapped such a head-strong SOB like me into it's magic, but it worked, and i had to start my life again from scratch. i turned into a jaded, hopeless individual who manipulated other's for money , and power. can't ever forgive myself for this.
so yeah. #1 influenced my year alot. as you can probaly tell. But that was 2006, this is 2007 and the year is over. since i came back to toronto, i have acquired a position at coast mountain sports as a manager in training, moved my best friend and i up to the 33rd floor penthouse, and gotten involved with some good people to hang with. my life may have been hell the last year, but i have come along way in a short time, and i know this year will hold alot of good things. The time of the Raven has come, fate needs to up it's game if it plans to haul me down. cause i ain't going down without a fight.