men suck ass
so alot has gone on since the last time i posted. and i only have 11 minutes to update, so here i go. since dusty left we've kept in good contact, tho i miss him very much, i'm glad he's as happy as he is. i started dating a huant friend, tho he seems to be hung up on a friend of mine whivh sucks really bad. it's one thing to start dating some random new friend, but i've been freinds with him for a while, never had the oppritunity that i do now. things have been pretty diffucult lately, i have the "my daddy never loved me " issues, and am considering going all the ay to vegas to tell him to go to hell. i think alot of my anxieties will deminish after i do this. then there's the whole friend wanting to be more than friends, but not felling the need to move into a relationship, even tho we've been dating for about 3 months now. i think that whole situation is either going to have to come to a crashing hault or move onto a more seriousness, i can't take any more of the in between, it hurts. i'm starting to feel cursed. i still havn't heard back from any of the palces that i've been applying to over that past few months, i think that if someone were to call me about work, i would kiel over right there. i got denied medical insurance because i'm a white, adult, legal, girl who isn't pregnant or has any children. my cats have been in heat for almost 2 weeks now, i havn't slept alone since they went into heat, one after another. they broke alot of my non relpacable wizard of oz stuff trying to break out of my room. but i guess there's a bonus, i've been spending more time with robin, amy and marylou, i need girl time. thats all for now.