reposting this excerpt from 2004.
"...said earlier on IM. I just wanted to tell him hello and hope his day is going well. I told him a little about some stuff, recent updates about me, and what does he say but "when will it all end?" and I said, "what? the job or the insanity?" and he said "the insanity. "
then I went off about how things are in the arts kind of like a flood of stuff for a show and then a lull...
but really, I wonder...
I feel like saying, um, hi, I'm an ARTIST...
personally it's pretty normal to me to see big fluffy costume bears walking around the theatre seats and be running around coated with paint listening to wierd organ music while the duck psychotherapy screaming and running practice sessions are going on above my head and I am stressed about how to pay for my next tubes of oil paint. This, to me, is normal. Insanity to me is working some job for half my life that I hate and not pursuing my talents and my dreams. I'm not saying he's not, and maybe he meant it lighthearted and he really does understand the artist vision. or maybe he's overwhelmed by my chaotic life and wishes my world would spin around his every word and I could just drop everything for him anytime he wanted or what? who knows. probably reading into things again. things are fine...."
then I went off about how things are in the arts kind of like a flood of stuff for a show and then a lull...
but really, I wonder...
I feel like saying, um, hi, I'm an ARTIST...
personally it's pretty normal to me to see big fluffy costume bears walking around the theatre seats and be running around coated with paint listening to wierd organ music while the duck psychotherapy screaming and running practice sessions are going on above my head and I am stressed about how to pay for my next tubes of oil paint. This, to me, is normal. Insanity to me is working some job for half my life that I hate and not pursuing my talents and my dreams. I'm not saying he's not, and maybe he meant it lighthearted and he really does understand the artist vision. or maybe he's overwhelmed by my chaotic life and wishes my world would spin around his every word and I could just drop everything for him anytime he wanted or what? who knows. probably reading into things again. things are fine...."