you can't see the forest for the trees
i coughed so hard i puked up dinner. D:
maaaaan, lj used to be so shiny. about a decade ago (jesus christ i'm getting old) it was like, super ghetto and exclusive and shit, and i was all BIG KIDS' CLUB, CAN I JOIN?? now it feels so washed out and sold out and everyone's disappeared everywhere. sadface. major sadface. it feels like, fft. the magic is gone. )8
(i've mucked around on tumblr a bit but it seems like you're pretty much just meant to post pictures/videos and add a witty comment. the problem there is that i'm not witty.)
i'm a little nervous about tomorrow. i'm meant to be seeing someone re. head things. i really kinda wanna ask her about why it is that i keep stopping myself from having relationships and pushing people away and hating them whenever they get close. it's totally not even something to be nervous about but the fact that i want to ask it makes me feel really embarrassed. :\
also randomly, white vinegar is the strongest cleaning agent ever and i am starting to become horrified that people put it on their food. i have a big bottle of it which i've only ever used to clean cat shit out of the carpet. last night, i thought HEY, WHY NOT TRY DROWNING MY RETAINERS IN THEM (because i still wear retainers, even though i don't have to, and they had a tremendous buildup of calcified spit-- DON'T LOOK AT ME THAT WAY, i've been using them for almost six years!!) i chucked my tongue jewelry in there too. next day i take them out and BAM. clean as new. i've been trying to remove that calcified shit for years.