Pissy post is pissy.
sdjfbgjdf kinda pissed, sorry. I need to yell.
FUCKITY FUCKING FUCK TODAY WAS SO FULL OF SHIT. So frustrated. Want to scream. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHDKFNHKDJKHDFJNHKFNHKGNHKFUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. DAMN IT SHITFUCKBITCHANGSTRAWR.
So I got woken up at 8am by my knee. I'm not even fucking kidding, there is probably something wrong with it because I've woken up in pain and been unable to get back to sleep for the second time now. It looks like a cut on top of a burn on top of a bruise and it's okay now (ignoring the fact that it's dribbling brown liquid all over my leg) but this morning it was just. Ugh. My back was aching like mad, too, which I'm guessing is because the bed's mattress is too soft. I'm gonna try sleeping on the floor tonight to see if that helps anything.
Then my period started today. And I'm wearing white pants. My pants only got stained a little, thank God, but... basically when my period first starts, I shouldn't anything because it goes right through me. It involves pain and I'll just leave it at that.
Then Chinese was just... disheartening. I couldn't keep up, everything was really difficult, and I basically had four hours of that, practically back-to-back. I came out of the last tutorial and was so angry (at myself) and verging on tears, I haven't felt like that since taking Chinese in high school and Chinese in high school gave me countless breakdowns and anxiety attacks. Fucking hell, learning a language should not be doing this to me.
Then I came home and my mom called me to tell me that my older (step)brother was hit by a car. Thankfully that was a couple of days ago and he's alright, he's going to be discharged from the hospital today (hence my mom getting the call-- yeah, my older brother and my 'main family' aren't as close as him and his 'main family'). But I. Rrgh. I don't want any more deaths in our family, not at least unless they're dying (understandably enough) of old age. I'm angry at the driver and I'm just, dkfjgbkdf. If my older brother had died we wouldn't even have known about it because I bet no one would've called to tell us and sdfkjbdkjhknhgnhnjk God, I don't even know.
All that on top of the fact that I'm just feeling sick and pukey in general... yeah.
This is probably one of those days that I'll look back on and laugh about. I mean, I was amused for the most of it. Being woken up by my knee was funny. Getting my period while wearing white pants was funny in that "oh man, what're the odds" way. My complete fucking incompetence was amusing for maybe the first two hours of class. Tris and I were sporfling slightly ('cause we have the EQ of gnats and our immediate reaction is to laugh when terrible things happen) about Nick's accident 'cause hey, we just finished Apollo Justice and then boom, Nick gets hit by a car! ("Dude, he should've torn off the car's sideview mirror like the Hulk and given it to a lawyer.")
I'm just. kdfkd. I'm sure this'll blow over soon (I'll make it blow over. Good happy thoughts, good happy thoughts; tomorrow's Friday and I have no class, yay!) but I just. Need to punch something. Or vent. So yeah.
/lol hormones