sooooo everything's confusing/

[criminal_youth]

i am lonely.
i am confused.
i am angry.
i am busy.
i am stressed.

i was going through last year's yearbook today and i started crying.

i wish that i had even one good reason why i should stay at lynnwood.

i wish that i didn't feel so fucking lonely and alone or whatever.

i wish that i wasn't so young.

i wish that i knew who i am.

i wish that i wasn't a fucking fuck up.

i wish that i could prioritize better.

i think that i'm done doing drugs and shit. i have to be done. i feel fucked up.

i wish that maybe i had made some different decisions in my life.

i wish that i would just stop waiting for people to give me another chance.

i think that i need to learn between right and wrong.

i think that i need to figure out how i'm going to get anywhere.

i wish that i didn't have the urges that i have.

sometimes i wish that i had different friends.
but other times i think that they're perfect.

i wish that i went to a different school
and had a different name
and a different face
and a different brain

i wish that i was more creative.

i wish that i could figure out what's really important.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

i wish that i was someone else, somewhere else, with something else.